We Do Recover

[MajestyJo]

We need to accept we are incomplete and imperfect human beings. Recovery will come, not from shame, but from honestly accepting our powerlessness and the help we need.

This is a quote from an old post made four years ago on relapse.

It is amazing how a light can go on when you read or hear someone else's wisdom. They just seem to put into words what I am thinking or trying to say but in words that are clear and bring a new spiritual awareness.

Relapse happens with the thinking long before I pick up a substance that takes me out of the reality of today. Thankfully for me it hasn't been a drug or a drink, and yet I can pick up things that lead to that same old soul sickness and way of thinking.

I can't give away what I don't have. I can't share on recovery if I am still not recovering. What I did 25 years ago, 8 months ago or even 16 days ago, won't keep me sober (soundness of mind) in today.

Today I don't feel shame in who I am. There are days I feel shame for others but that is none of my business and is something I have to detach from.

How many times I have thought "I am embarrassed for them!"

"If they could only see themselves, would they continue...."

I am powerless and when I don't accept that my life becomes unmanageable. When I think I am the power, my life becomes unmanageable; and it isn't until I surrender and get honest, that I can restore that manageability. When I surrender, I am empowered to help myself which brings me back to being God-centered instead of Self-centered.