NA JFT - FEBRUARY 2014

[MajestyJo]

Don't like the phrase, "Fake it until you make it," doesn't sound like the honesty needed in order to recover. Yet having said that, "I didn't think I was an alcoholic, even though I knew I was an addict, it two years of denial to get truly honest. I used alcohol like I used everything else. I wanted what they had in the rooms of AA, so I brought the body, and the mind followed. I say I go to NA for identification and to AA for my denial. As I often say, "I used pills, men, food, men, alcohol, men, work/busy, and it took a long time to look at the dysfunctional relationships and look at my part. I realized that the last person I was in a relationship, ended up with all the sins of the first relationship I had been in, I hadn't forgiven, myself or them, and hadn't allowed myself to heal. Instead of allowing the healing, I popped a pill.