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12 x 12 Dictionary
ABC Words
A.A. beam - 85 - see beam abandon - ( uh ban dun ) - 7, 69 - leave / leave behind / let go of abandoned - ( uh ban dun’d ) - 10, 93, 141 - left behind / given up / dropped / rejected abashed - ( uh bash’d ) - 54 - surprised / embarrassed / confused / made to feel mentally uncomfortable abetted - ( uh bet id ) - 33 - helped / supported / aided / helped or approved in wrong thinking or doing abhor - ( ab hore or ub hore ) - 64 - hate / despise / have no use for / withdraw from in disgust / detest abiding - ( uh bye ding ) - 131 - lasting / steady / continuing / enduring / continuing without change abilities - ( uh bil uh teez ) - 51, 181 - powers / skills / capacities / capabilities / strengths / natural or gained powers ability - ( uh bil uh tee ) - 10,48,52,91,102,111,114,124,150,158,174 - power / capacity / capability / strength / natural or gained power to act abnormally - ( ab nor muh lee / ab norm ull ee ) - 123 - unusually / oddly / differently from an accepted standard or type abolition - ( ab uh lish un ) - 178 - ending / formally put an end to a practice, institution, or condition abound - ( uh bound ) - 48 - have many of / have plenty of / exist in large amounts or numbers abroad - ( uh broad ) - 165 - away / in other places / elsewhere / over a wide area / in other countries absolve - ( ab zalv / ub zalv ) - 50 - free / pardon / set free from obligation, responsibility, or blame abstractions - ( ab strak shuns ) - 29 - ideas / th***ies / imaginings / creations from unrealistic or impractical thinking absurdly - ( ab -or- ub sird lee / ab -or- ub zird lee ) - 122 - insanely / unreasonably / foolishly / contrary to reason or common sense abundance - ( uh bun dunts ) - 65, 71, 98 - excessive amount / great supply / a greater amount than needed or required accept -( ak sept / ek sept )- 8, 31, 41, 52, 59, 68, 88, 112, 119, 122, 125, 166, 169 - to agree with / to take something ( given or offered ) willingly - to know and be tolerant or sympathetic toward - ( put up with ) endure or submit to - to regard as acceptable (tolerate, approve, sanction) / to take upon oneself - to recognize or regard ( often reluctantly ) as being valid or true accepted - ( ak sep tid / ek sep tid ) - 21, 111, 122, 124 - ( past tense of accept - see accept ) / believed to be true, valid, or proper acceptance - ( ak sep tunse / ek sep tunse ) - 34, 190 - agreement / approval / favorable reception (34) / taking or receiving (190) accomplishments - ( uh kom plish munts ) - 117 - achievements / actions / deeds / attainments accordingly - ( uh kor ding lee ) - 94 - so / in a similar way / for this reason / consequently accountable - ( uh count uh bull / uh koun tuh bull ) - 134, 175 - answerable / responsible / subject to giving an account accumulating - ( uh koom yuh lay ting ) - 120 - gathering / saving / gradually increasing in quantity or number / amassing accurate - ( ak yur it ) - 61, 77, 79, 89 - correct / right / verifiable / without error / true or exact representation of fact achieve - ( uh cheeve ) - 64, 91, 111, 190 achieved - 35, 58 - reach / accomplish / realize / to gain with effort / to carry out with success achievement - ( uh cheeve munt ) - 37, 71, 100 achievements - 70, 112 - something completed, especially by means of work, skill, or practice acid test - ( ass id test ) - 37, 88 - a test that decides the worth or quality of something ( from acid testing of or for gold ) acme - ( ak me ) - 149 - peak / highest measure / highest point or state / greatest degree or measure acquaintance - ( uh kway tunce ) - 70, 162 - a person whom one knows but not necessarily a close friend ( 70 ) - experience / personal knowledge, experience, or information about ( 162 ) acquainted -( uh kwain tid )- 119 - known and experienced with one another acquire - ( uh kwire ) - 27 acquires ( uh kwirez ) - 40 - have / get / gain ( 27 ) / has / gets / gains ( 40 ) acquired - ( uh kwire’d ) - 38, 58, 89 - gained / developed / learned / adopted / come to have as a trait or ability acquisition - ( ak wuh zish un ) - 121 - gain / attainment / something gathered, acquired, or added activator - ( ak tuh vay tur ) - 7, 76 - stimulant / energizer / something that makes something else active or more so actuality - ( ak choo al uh tee ) ( ak sha wile uh tee ) - 94 ( in actuality - in actual fact ) - fact / truth / reality / being actual acute - ( uh cute / uh kyoot ) - 39, 53, 117 - intense / sharp / extreme / of great importance / sensitive / intensely painful acutely - ( uh cute lee / uh kyoot lee ) - 50 - deeply / intensely / desperately / being critical, near a breaking point or crisis ad infinitum - ( ad in fuh nite um / ad in fa nye tum ) - 47 - endlessly / without end or limit / to infinity / having no end adapted - ( ad ap tid ) - 118 - made to fit / adjusted / changed in structure, character, or substance administered - ( ad min us terd / ad min eh stirred ) - 64, 172 - given / applied / provided / run / managed / supervised admission -( ad mish un )- 5,6,7,9,23,25,39,55,56,68,73,75,78,84,89, 93,143 s - 21, 59 - voluntary confession or acknowledgement of a truth / the act or process of admitting / agreement that a fact or statement is true / allowing to enter / allowed to enter / a fee paid or required to access or enter admission price - 7 ( price of admission - 75 ) - a charge or fee required or paid to gain access or enter / see - admission admitted - ( ad mit id ) - 5, 6, 8, 21, 38, 55, 59, 73, 76, 78, 88, 107 - confirmed / declared / acknowledged / accepted - realized or regarded ( often reluctantly ) as being valid or true - allowed to enter / let in / taken in / shown in adoption - (uh dop shun ) - 24 - acceptance following / embracing / choosing or taking on as one’s own adversity - ( ad ver suh tee ) - 70 - hard times / difficult times / unfortunate, and usually unexpected, events advocate - ( ad vuh cut ) - 24, 56 - supporter / promoter / to speak or argue in favor of something or someone affairs - ( uh fair’z ) - 8,9,10,52,94,105,106,109,111,114,146,154,161,189 - happenings / activities / topics / concerns / things to be dealt with personally - relationships / romantic involvements / social gatherings / business matters affected - ( uh fek tid ) - 79, 81, 84, 85, 86, 116, 118 - to have had one’s thinking and/or emotions changed or influenced / impact - influenced / impressed / to have brought about a response - infected or attacked, as by an illness or disease affecting -( uh fek ting )-10,146 - influencing / causing change to / relating to affection -( uh fek shun)- 39,124 - love / respect / admiration / warm feelings affiliate - ( uh fil ee ate ) - 10, 147 - associate / partner / join / unite / ally affiliation - ( uh fil ee ay shun ) -147,189,190 - connection / association / partnership / alliance / attachment - relationship with a group or cause / interdependence affirmative - ( uh firm uh tiv ) - 63 - yes / positive 34 - assertive / aggressive afford - ( uh ford ) - 18, 102, 186 - provide to / offer / make available to / allow - dare / risk / bear / do without risk or disadvantage ( 186 ) affords - ( uh fords ) - 176 - offers / provides / makes available to agencies - ( uh jen sees ) - 169, 190 - organizations / businesses / services agenda - ( uh jen duh ) - 163 - routine / program / order of business / list of things to be done or considered age-old - ( age old ) - 15, 117 - very old / persistent / long standing / enduring aggravate -( ag ruh vate )- 55 - worsen / to make more troublesome or worse aggravated - ( ag ruh vay tid ) - 78, 118 - worsened / increased / provoked aggrieved -( uh greev’d )- 185 - injured / offended / wronged / treated unjustly agitated -( aj uh tay tid )- 157 - stirred up interest / caused to move / troubled agnostic -( ag nos tik )- 28, 33, 62, 107 agnostics - 96 - one who believes that the existence of God cannot be proved or disproved / The word Thomas H. Huxley, a 19th Century British scientist, created to describe his own view of the existence of God. ( ‘A or Ag’ - without ‘gnosis’ - higher knowledge ) agonized - ( ag uh nized ) - 66 - troubled / tormented / caused to suffer aimlessly - ( aim less lee ) - 129 - without purpose / without direction akin - ( uh kin ) - 178 - similar / comparable / along the same lines as alas - ( uh lass ) - 148 - unfortunately / an expression of regret, unhappiness, pity, or concern alcohol - 5, 21, 22, 25, 27, 28, 29, 31, 32, 34, 35, 36, 39, 40, 45, 57, 63, 64, 68, 73, 76, 107, 124, 152, 157, 167, 169, 170, 192 - ethanol, especially when considered as the intoxicating agent in fermented and distilled liquors / a drink ( as whiskey or beer ) containing ethanol / ( ethanol is a colorless flammable liquid, obtained from the fermentation of sugars and starches, which is also used in some drugs, cleaning solutions, fuels, and explosives. Ethanol is also called ethyl alcohol and grain alcohol. alcohol reform - 192 - see reform - social, political, or legal efforts to affect laws as they may relate to the use or manufacture of alcoholic drinks alcoholic/s - ( al kuh hall ik/s ) - 94 entries including covers - containing alcohol ( as a drink ) / person/s affected with alcoholism alcoholism - ( al kuh hall iz um ) - 15, 16, 17, 23, 24, 33, 39, 54, 63, 64, 73, 80, 116, 117, 142, 152, 155, 156, 158, 166, 169, 177, 178, 180, 189 - continued excessive, compulsive, and/or obsessive use of alcoholic drinks - poisoning by alcohol / mental-physical dependence on, and compulsive use of, alcoholic drinks / a complex chronic psychological and nutritional disorder associated with excessive and usually compulsive drinking / see compulsion ( also see - in ‘Alcoholics Anonymous’ Big Book - Pages - 23,30,31, 44 ( top ) alibis - ( al uh bize / al uh buys ) - 47 - excuses / explanations to avoid blame, punishment, or to justify actions alike - ( uh like ) - 17, 48, 64, 89, 173 - the same ( 48, 89 ) - in the same or similar manner or degree / in like manner ( 17, 64,173 ) allayed -( uh lay’d )- 148 - eased / calmed / decreased / made less severe allergy - ( al er jee ) - 5, 22 - unusual reaction or sensitivity / abnormal sensitivity to certain substances - exaggerated or disease-like reaction to substances or physical states that are without comparable effect on the average individual all-pervading - ( all per vaid ing ) - 187 - extremely common / universal / present throughout alternated -( al tur nay tid )- 84 - changed / switched / swung back and forth alternately - ( al tur nit lee / al turn it lee ) - 118 - in turns / pass back and forth between / one after the other / in succession altitude - ( al tuh tood ) - 187 - level / position of importance or prominence ambition -( am bish un )- 12,51,66,122,123,124,183 s -(shunz)-49,130,150 - aim, goal, plan, intent, design, purpose, meaning, or desire - desire or intention to do or succeed at something ambitious - ( am bish us ) - 29, 122, 183 - eager / motivated to achieve something / enthusiastic / full of ambition ambushed - ( am bush’d ) - 54 - trapped / attacked from a hidden place amends - ( uh mends ) - 7, 32, 77, 83, 85, 86, 87, 94, 108 - restorations / corrections / restitutions / things done to make corrections for, or ‘make up for’ harm, loss, or damage done to or experienced by another analysis - ( uh nal uh sis ) or ( uh nal us sees ) - 91 - evaluation / appraisal / judgment regarding the worth or importance analyzing - ( an uh lye zing ) - 33 - reviewing / looking at / examining anarchists - ( an ar kists / an ur kists ) - 130 - people who believe governmental authority unnecessary and undesirable anarchy - ( an ar key / an ur kee ) - 129 - disorder / confusion / lawlessness anchorage - ( an kuh ridj / ang kur idj ) - 72 - connection / attachment / stable position, foundation, relationship, or basis ancient - ( ain shunt ) - 6,56,94,166 - old / very old / of great age / historic anew - ( uh new / uh noo ) - 50 - again / in a new and different way angle - ( ang ul ) - 109, 132, 152, 153 - trick / a scheme or distortion of information to present a particular point of view / a special way, often deceptive or improper, of achieving an aim angrily - ( ang ruh lee ) - 67, 167, 177 - in anger / furiously / with bad temper or displeasure anguish - ( ang gwish ) - 144 - extreme pain / distress / torment / anxiety animated - ( an uh may tid / anna may tid ) -175 - energized / having life animates - ( an uh mates ) - 151 - inspires / encourages / gives life to annoy -( uh noy )- 67 - anger / bother / irritate / aggravate / disturb / madden annoyed - ( uh noy’d ) - 48 - irritated / angered / disturbed - see annoy annual - ( an yull / an you’ll ) - 89 - yearly / done or happening every year anonymity - ( an uh nim uh tee / anna nim it ee ) / also see anonymous - 35 entries on pages 12,13,158,170,171,180,182,183,184,185,186,187,192 - being unknown or unacknowledged / namelessness / the practice of not disclosing or acknowledging AA members names or photographs in any media, broadcast, film, or public print / the quality or state of being anonymous anonymous - ( uh non uh muss / uh nonna muss ) - 77 entries - without name / unidentified / undisclosed / having an unknown or unacknowledged name / not known / unknown, usually by choice / not having a clear or characteristic way to be known or recognized antisocial - ( an tye so shull / an tee so shull ) -171 - not sociable - disrespectful / acting disrespectful of, interfering with, or avoiding others anvils - ( an vulz ) - 131 - blocks of iron or steel used to shape metals anxieties - ( ang zie uh tees ) - 45, 52, 123 - worries / cares / concerns / fears / troubled states of mind anxiety - ( ang zie uh tee ) - 52, 56, 74, 135, 140 - see anxieties anxious - ( anx shuss / anks shuss ) - 57, 94 - uneasy / restless / impatient / fearful / irritable / eager or desirous to the point of frustration / full of anxiety and fear about the future / lacking self confidence / easily upset or distressed / unable to be patient or calm anxiously - ( anx shus lee ) - 129 - with uneasy concern / see anxious apartness - ( uh part nuss ) - 57 - separation / state of being set apart or away from others / exclusion apologies - ( uh pa lu jeez ) - 79, 84 - expressions of regret for wrongs done apparent -( uh pair unt )- 64,135,150,160,186 - clear / obvious / easy to see apparently - ( uh pair unt lee / uh pair ent lee ) - 22, 132 - seemingly / evidently / appearing as such but not necessarily so appeal - ( uh peel ) - 74 - seem interesting / attract / call appeals - ( uh peelz ) - 162, 184 - requests for help or information applicants -( ap luh kunts )-148 - seekers of a job, position, or membership application - ( ap luh kay shun ) - 15,17,90,185 - use / practice / exercise appraisal -( uh prayz ull )- 32, 54 - consideration / assessment / evaluation / examination / review / measurement / judgment of worth or value appraise - ( uh prayz ) - 59 - evaluate / consider / measure / view / rate appraising - (uh pray zing ) - 52 - reviewing / evaluating / considering apt - ( app’t ) - 45,57,60,62,66,67,73,85,92,96,164 - likely / inclined / prone architect - ( ar keh tekt / ark uh tekt ) - 149 - builder / designer / creator ardent - ( ar dnt / ard unt / ar dent ) - 111, 182 - eager / intense / ambitious ( 111 ) devoted / enthusiastic / passionate ( 182 ) argue - ( arg u ) - 85, 176 - debate / discuss / express differing viewpoints arose - ( uh rose ) - 18, 157 - appeared / came up / emerged / developed arouse - ( uh ralz ) - 15, 80 …d - ( uh ralz’d ) - 44 …s - ( uh ral zuz ) - 52 - stir up / awaken / excite / provoke / stir / inspire / prompt / stimulate arranging - ( uh rain jing ) - 110 - planning and preparing / setting up arrant - ( air unt ) - 60 - absolute / complete / total arteries - ( ar tuh reez / art uh reez ) - 129 - passage ways / blood carriers aside - ( uh side ) - 91, 115, 137, 143, 150, 164, 187 - away / on or to one side / apart aspects -( as pekts / ass peckts )- 66,185 - features / parts / characteristics aspiration - ( as puh ray shun ) - 101 apirations - (… shunz ) - 186 - aim / desire / goal / ambition / desire for high achievement / goal or purpose assailed - ( uh sail’d ) - 22, 167 - attacked / assaulted / intensely attacked with harsh language ( 167 ) assassination - ( uh sass uh nay shun ) - 67 - attack / destruction / injury assert - ( uh sert ) - 92 - claim / declare / positively say asserted - 152 assets - ( ass ets ) - 6, 42, 46, 75, 88, 93, 95, 113 - positives / useful or valuable qualities or things / advantages or resources associates - ( uh so she its / uts ) ( uh so see its / uts ) - 51, 79, 92, 186 - partners / friends / companions / peers / colleagues assumed - ( uh soom’d ) - 133 - taken for granted / accepted / assumed / taken for or as one’s right assurance - ( uh shore unts ) - 28, 33, 39, 104, 172 - freedom from doubt / guarantee / certainty / confidence / promise / faith / trust assure -( uh shur )- 27,79 - inform / remove doubt from / make sure to assured -( uh shur’d )-76,98- made to feel sure, certain, confident, and secure astonish - ( uh ston ish ) - 84 - surprise / amaze astonishing -140 - amazing astray - ( uh stray ) - 50,59 - away from the desired path, direction, or behavior asunder - ( uh sun dur ) - 176 - apart / into separate parts, pieces, or direction asylum - ( uh sye lum) -140 …s - ( … lumz ) -157 - psychiatric hospital / - a place where the sick, very poor, and especially the insane, are cared for at heart - ( at hart ) - 123 - in our deepest feeling / fundamentally at large - ( at larj ) - 53, 112 - as a whole / in general / without limits at length - ( at lengkth / at leng’th ) - 90, 143 - eventually / after some time atheist - ( aye thee ist / aye thee ust ) - 26, 28, 33, 107, 143 - one that does not believe in and denies the existence of God or gods atheistic -( aye thee is tik / aye thee iz tik )- 62 - as an atheist - see atheist atmosphere - ( at muss fear ) - 85, 97, 100 - air / feeling / effect / mood - surrounding conditions, influences, and circumstances atom - ( at um ) - 97 - basic part of all / smallest particle or unit of a matter attain - ( uh tain ) - 28, 64 - get / gain / have / reach / earn / achieve / realize attainment - ( uh tain munt ) - 70 - realization / gaining / see - attain attitude - ( at uh tood ) - 7, 23, 27, 65, 75, 76, 79, 83, 168, 174, 182 attitudes -9,24,56,92,114,115,116,120,125 - point of view / stance / mood - characteristics of personality / mental position / feeling toward - a negative, hostile, defiant, and arrogant manner or mannerism attributes - ( at trib yoots ) - 29, 67 - qualities / characteristics / traits authority-( ah thor uh tee )-9,10,12,16,132,133,172,173,174,189,190, 191,192 - power / one who has the right and power to rule, govern, or judge autonomous - ( ah tawn uh mus ) - 10, 146 - independent / self reliant - self supporting, self governing, self regulating, and self sufficient autonomy -( ah tawn uh me )- 146 - being autonomous - see - autonomous - From text - page 146 “…it means very simply that every A.A. group can manage its affairs as it pleases, except when A.A. as a whole is threatened.” avail -( uh vale )- 34 - help / benefit / serve / profit / be of use or advantage to avalanche - ( av uh lanch ) - 133, 162 - flood / huge amount / landslide aversion - ( uh verzshun ) - 73, 160 - dislike / hatred / opposition / resistance axiom -( ak see um / ax zee um )-90 - basic truth or rule / saying / assumption Bacchus -( bah kus / bok us )- 57 - From Roman & Greek mythology - god of wine and barley. Bacchus was also the god of the theater. Considered by the Romans same as the Greek god, Dionysus. ( die uh nee sus / die uh nye sus ) backslider - ( bak slide er ) - 173 - person who drinks alcoholic drinks again / - one who relapses / one who ‘slides back’ to wrongdoing or a worse condition. backtracks - ( bak traks ) - goes back over the path one [ he/she ] has come baffled - ( baf ull’d ) -182 - puzzled / confused / frustrated / bewildered baffling - ( baf ling ) - 15 - frustrating / mysterious / confusing / difficult balance sheet -( bal unts sheet )- 89, 93 - a listing of positive and negative quantities or qualities for review, evaluation, or summary ( ‘totaling up’ ) balanced people - 90 - mentally and emotionally stable - people baleful -( bay’l ful / bail ful )- 38 - dangerous / bad / harmful / weakening balk - ( balk ) - 44 - strain / recoil / shrink / stop short and refuse / resist balked -( balk’d )- 108 - stopped / resisted / stopped and refused to go on band - ( band ) - 130, 146 - group / group of individuals / troop banded - ( ban did ) -15 - joined / gathered / united banished - ( ban ish’d ) - 76, 173 - forced to leave / driven away / cast out bankrupt -( bank rup’t )-15 - discredited / “down-and-out” / destitute / ruined / - empty or lacking in needed or valuable qualities or resources bankruptcy - ( bank rupt see ) - 21,107 - being bankrupt - see bankrupt - state of emptiness, failure, ruin, and powerlessness / lack of resources / ruin barbed -( barb,d )- 67 - peaked / sharpened / made sharp - cutting - stinging barest - ( bair ist ) - 73 - …is the… least or minimum of a… beginning. barren -( bair un )- 72 - empty / unproductive / “…missing a working faith…” barrier - ( bair ee ur ) - 57, 141 - block / wall / obstruction / obstacle barrooms - ( bar rooms ) - 116 - a place where alcoholic beverages are sold basis - ( bay suss ) - 9, 37, 72, 76, 108, 116, 140 - base / foundation / basic idea / footing / basic truth / something upon which something else is built / position or circumstance from which to operate bask - ( bask ) - 133 - delight in / take great satisfaction in / indulge in battering - ( batter ing ) - 146 - beating / repeated strikes, blows, challenges beached - ( beech’t / like reached ) - stranded / left behind or in an uncomfortable place / see - summarily beached beam - 84,111,112 - desired or aimed for manner or state of being, particularly in behavior, emotions, thinking, and spiritual condition. / ”…the A.A. beam.“ (84) - guidelines within or suggested by “The 12 Steps” Big Book - 3rd Ed. - Stories: ‘Promoted to Chronic’ - Pg.471- last paragraph. ( Attributes often considered as being “on the beam” = honesty, faith, courage, considerate, humility, giving, calm, grateful, patience, tolerance, forgiveness, love, self-forgetfulness, humility, modesty, self-forgiveness, trust, moderation, action ) bear - ( bair / bare ) - 33, 98, 115 - to apply force to or influence ( 98 ) - stand / tolerate / something difficult to do ( 33,115 ) Beatitudes -( be at uh toods )- 30 - any of the statements in the Sermon on the Mount ( King James Bible - Matthew 5:3 -11 ) beginning “Blessed are…” begats - ( be gats ) - 30 - ( past tense of beget ) - notes relating someone being the father of, or giving birth to, someone else ( Biblical ) beat-up - 170 - badly worn / in bad shape / knocked about roughly ( …beat-up topers… ) - topers - ( toe purz ) - those who drink to excess bedeviled - ( beh dev ull’d ) - 78 - troubled / tormented / plagued / controlled bedrock - ( bed rock ) - 21,50 - foundation / basis / solid rock under loose soil behave - ( beh hay’v ) - 37, 119 - act / react / function / perform - to conduct oneself in a proper, specified, or particular way behavior - ( beh hay’v your ) - 16,33,45,51,52,53,55,78,85,123 - how one behaves ( see behave ) / actions / reactions / conduct / function / performance - actions as they make up a way of evaluation by others / response to belaboring -( beh lay bur ing )- 30 - verbally attacking / discussing repeatedly belligerent -( beh lidj ur unt )- 25 - defiant / combative / eager to fight / hostile bender -( ben dur )- 79 - period of time spent drinking in an uncontrolled way benefactors - ( ben uh fak turs ) - 161 - financial supporters / contributors benefit -( ben uh fit )- 60, 96, 98 - positive result / value / good / importance benevolent - ( buh nev uh lunt) - 172 - charitable / generous / giving benevolent association - 172 - a group organized to support charity ( giving ) benign - ( beh nine ) - 133 - kind / harmless / showing a favorable influence bent upon - 64 - to apply themselves in the different direction of bereavement - ( beh reev munt ) - 112 - being left alone or suffering loss, especially by death - lacking in advantage, opportunity, experience, economic or social needs beset - ( beh set ) - 52, 58, 133 - surround / surrounded / trouble / troubled - set upon or attacked from all sides / possess / possessed / take / taken besetting - ( beh set ing ) - 30 - constantly troubling / that which besets one - possessing / ( in allusion to Biblical - Hebrews xii -1 - …besetting sin… ) besieged - ( beh seej’d ) - 187 - attacked / troubled / harassed / plagued best-intentioned - ( best - in ten shun’d ) -113 - see - intention bestowal - ( beh sto ull ) - 151 - presentation / offering / passing on as a gift bewildered - ( beh wil durd ) - 28 - confused / completely lost in one’s way biased - ( by ust ) - 99 - unfairly judgmental / unfavorably influenced bigotry - ( big uh tree ) - 30 - intolerance / inequality / unfairness / prejudice - not acceptant, tolerant, or respectful, of others group, religion, race, or politics big shot ( shot ) - 47, 51, 92, 116 - important or special person / - an important or prominent member of a profession or organization big-shot-ism - 8, 92 - acting like a big shot / see - big shot and - ism big-time - 159 - very serious / the worst [ best ] kind of / the highest ranking binge -( binj )- 148,168 s -( bin juz )- 38,120 - period/s of time spent drinking heavily / to participate in excessive or uncontrolled indulgence in food or drink bitter -( bit ur )- 123,177 - resentful / insulting / without respect or acceptance - critical or untrusting of the motives or integrity of others - sharp / harsh (177) bitterly - ( bit ur lee ) - 28, 115 - painfully / brutally / hatefully / resentfully bitterness - ( bit ur nuss ) - 38, 52 - resentfulness / being bitter - see bitter - possible as used on Pg. 52 > - difficulty in accepting, admitting, or bearing blasphemy -( blass fuh me )-143,145 - lack of respect for God / insulting or showing contempt or lack of respect for God or anything held as sacred bleeding deacon - ( … dee kun ) - 10, 135 s - 135 - an overly emotional assistant - ( text definition on Pg. 135 ) / also see deacon blindly - ( bl i n’d lee ) - 42, 65 - without, or independent of, control or reason blissful state - ( bliss full state ) - 113 - extremely happy condition of being block - 49, 76, 123 - stop / barrier / obstruction ( 49 ) / closes / obstructs / cut off from site ( 76 ) / piece / set of similar items / mold ( 123 ) also see chips bludgeoned -( bluh jun’d )- 75 - struck down / pressured / forced / repeatedly struck / overcome by being beaten with a short, heavy, stick or club / bloodied bluffing - ( bluff ing ) - 51, 69 - misleading / displaying a false confidence blunders - ( blun durz ) - 60 - mistakes / serious errors of judgment board -( bord )- 12,132,136,140,148,162,164,165,168,173,175,182,189 ,191 - a group of people given or assigned the responsibility of management, administration, supervision, or investigation - payment for meals / payment for temporary shelter and meals - ( 136 ) boarded - ( bord id ) - 137 - provided food and shelter for boasted - ( boast id ) - 123, 163 - bragged / talked with excessive pride body politic - ( body… pah luh tik / polla tik ) - 133 - the majority of our members / the larger part of a group or organization bog - ( bog / balg ) - 45 - swamp / area of soft and wet ground bogeymen -( boo gee / bow gee / boog ee men )- 49 - needless imaginary fears / imaginary monsters often used to threaten or frighten children bogged down -( bog’d / balg’d down )-156- slowed or stopped as if in a bog boiler - ( boy lur ) -149 - a tank or container used to heat or boil water bolster - ( bowl stur ) - 6 - support / to help keep from weakening or failing boomeranged - ( boom uh rang’d ) - 57 - came back / backfired / returned the opposite result of that desired / to produce an unexpected or undesired effect bore down hard - 152 - concentrated / focused / stressed in spite of opposition bored -( bord )- 92 - disinterested & tired of ‘our being dull, tedious, repetitive’ bottom -( bot um )- 5,24,94,148 - “…admission of hopelessness.” ( Pg. 23 ) / ( Program definition - generally: a time in ones life when alcoholism has brought a sense of absolute hopelessness, which is later viewed as a turning point and beginning toward recovery. ) / to reach the lowest level or the least favorable position / the lowest, deepest, or under, part or point / Text references: Pg. 23 - “…low-bottom cases…” and “…raise the bottom..” bound - ( like ‘sound’ ) - 40, 81, 89, 150, 158 - certain / sure ( 40, 81, 89, 158 ) / forced / required / held ( 150 ) boundaries - ( boun duh reez ) - 8, 101 - limits bounds - ( bounz / like sounds ) - 67 - limits / margins / restrictions bowing -( like pow ing )- 96 - kneeling in respect / submitting / surrendering bowled over ( bold over ) - 136 - powerfully impressed / taken by surprise bracing - ( bray sing ) - 98 - refreshing / strengthening / health-giving braggart - ( brag urt ) - 66 - self admiring showoff / - one given to empty self admiration, bragging, or boasting brash -( like trash )- 143 - hasty and unthinking / lacking in sensitivity / rash brats - 174 - bad mannered and annoying children breadwinner - ( bread winner ) - 118 - one who provides financial support breeder - ( bree dur ) - 49 - source / cause / creator brew - ( broo ) - 133, 142 - make / create broker -( broke ur )- 16 - stockbroker / agent for sales of companies stock broods - ( broodz ) - 39 - thinks / dwells / thinks at length in a gloomy or resentful state of mind brotherhood - 37,53,77,116 - fellowship / friendliness / people united for common aims / a pleasant association or condition of being friends browbeat -( brow beat )-143- continually annoyed, pressured, and harassed - to frighten or pressure with threats or a show of force / bully / intimidate buffeted -( buf uh tid )- 69 - beaten / battered / struck heavily and repeatedly bugs in it - 158 - flaws, defects, or difficulties in it building of character - 65 - see character and character building burden - ( bur dun ) - 62, 86 - load / weight / pressure / obligation bureau - ( b’you’re oh ) - 145 - a writing table or desk with drawers / - a chest of drawers for clothes, or ‘dresser’, usually used in a bedroom bush-league pinch hitter - ( bush leeg pinch hit ur... ) - 75 - a substitute batter in a minor league baseball game busybody -( bizzy body )- 156 - one who concerns himself with others affairs broth - ( brah th ) - 156 - the water part of soup / soup stock / soup base buttonholing - ( button hole ing ) - 185 - holding a person in conversation, against their will, as if by holding a clothing button / [ origin: ‘button-holding’ ] bygones - ( by gone’z ) - 79 - things that are past, especially past offences / - gone by / the past, especially a dissatisfaction, resentment, debt, or offense bypass - ( by pass ) - 55 - avoid / ignore / go around / pass by or around calamities - ( kuh lam uh teez ) - 113 - disasters / tragedies / hardships calamity -( kuh lam uh tee )- 9, 31, 112, 116 - disaster / hardship / hard times calculated -( kal k’yuh lay tid )-7 - planned / purposeful / carefully considered callous - ( kal us ) - 81 - unfeeling / insensitive / hardhearted / unemotional camp -( kamp )- 158 - side / group of people who share a cause or think alike campaign - ( kam pain ) - 157 - effort / organized effort to achieve an aim campus -( kam pus )- 119 - places where members gather / meeting grounds candor - ( kan dur ) - 57 - honesty and openness / sincerity / directness capability -( kay puh bil uh tee )- 104 - power to bring about a result / ability capable of -( kay puh bul ov )- 38,63 - able to show or exhibit / able / having capitalists - ( kap it ul lists ) - 156 - people with great wealth / investors capsize - ( kap size ) - 139 - overturn / tip over / sink careers -( kuh rear’z )- 55,122,170 - lives / history / background ( 55, 122 ) - jobs / permanent occupation or lifework ( 170 ) cart before the horse - 114 - less important ahead of the most important - to reverse the natural or proper order cast - ( kast ) - 35, 89, 132, 171 - throw ( 35, 132 ) / see cast up cast up - ( kast up ) - 89, 171 - create / form / make casual - ( kazsh wul / kah zshu wul / kah szhul ) - 79, 85 - not serious / relaxed / easy / informal / offhand / chance / occasional casualty - ( kaz yule tee ) - 113 - death / victim / one injured or killed catalog -( kat uh log )- 4, 59 - list / detailed item list systematically arranged catalogue - ( kat uh log ) - 81 - list or itemized display / see catalog catastrophe - ( kuh tas truh fee / kuh tast ruh fee ) - 31, 113 - disaster / tragedy / crisis / blow / severe misfortune, usually unexpected cater - ( kay tur ) - 140 - serve / support / attend to the wants or needs of Catholic - ( kath uh lik / kath lik ) - 147 - members of the Catholic Church ceaselessly -( seece lis lee )- 49 - constantly / continually / without stopping cell - ( sell ) - 25 - smallest structural part of an organism that is able to function independently centered - ( sent urd ) - 56 - see spiritually centered central -( sen trul / sent rul )- ‘Grand Central Station’ address not included. - at, in, near, or forming the center / core / average / in-between / - relating to a basic or main part / foundation / primary / underlying / principle … central government - 16, 174 - group of people who make rules or laws and hold the power of absolute authority and control … central or intergroup committee - 191 - a group of people ( committee ) elected by their group meeting members, or in some cases volunteers, who serve to perform administrative functions for AA in some cities or areas. … central theme - 150, 174 - main point / primary factor / principle focus centuries - ( sent cher eez / sench ur eez ) - 98 - periods of 100 years century - ( sent chur ee / sench ur ee ) - 56, 178 - period of 100 years certainty - ( surt un tee ) - 86, 124, 166 - likelihood ( 86 ) / fact / assurance / trust / conviction / faith ( 124, 166 ) chain - 155 - see - hospital chain chain reaction - ( chain ree act shun ) - 17, 164 - series of events in which each one causes or influences the next chalk that up - 93 - add / write / record that / consider that / credit that chalking up debits - 89 - accounting for debts / adding or noting negatives challenge - ( chal unj ) - 114 s - ( chal un zuz ) - 8, 89 - demands / test of one’s abilities or resources / call to action or account challengingly - ( chal lin jing lee / chal unj ing lee ) - 138 - in a questioning manner / demanding explanation or justification / defiantly channel -( chan ul )- 99,101,102,103,109,133,169 s-( chan ulz )- 8,180 - ways, routes, or means by which something is communicated, transmitted, or carried // force / power / cause / means / that by which something is carried, communicated, transmitted, or accomplished ( 99, 101, 102, 103, 109, 180 ) - give / carry / offer / take / direct or guide along a desired course ( 133, 169 ) channeled -( chan ul’d )-186 - managed / used / directed in use / allocated character -( kair ik/uk tur )- 6,45,46,48,49,50,51,53,55,56,63,65,67,69,71, 72,73,76,108,109,141 - a distinctive way of looking or acting / style / manner / way / an example of curious or unexpected behavior / an essential and distinctive trait / feature / mannerism / quality / a person’s emotional, intellectual, and moral qualities / personality / nature / public estimation of someone / reputation / image / standing / status / one’s general behavior character assassination - ( … uh sass uh nay shun ) - 67, 158, 172, 174 - being severely critical of another person / intense personal verbal attack intended to destroy or damage someone’s reputation / slander / mudslinging character-building-71,72,74- adding of positive qualities to one’s character … building of character - 65 - see - character character defects // also for - defects of character - 6,7,8,45,46,47,48,49, 50,51,52,53,54,55,56,58,59,63,65,66,67,68,69,73,74 ,76,78,82,84,108 -- Related: character flaws - personality flaws - character - flaws - attitudes, actions, reactions, wrong thinking and wrong doing, that stand in the way of our usefulness to God and our fellows - ( Big Book - Page 76 ) - Weak items in our personal inventory that act as obstacles in our path toward getting a new attitude and a new relationship with our Creator. ( Big Bk-Pg.72 ) - "bad personality traits" ( Big Book - Personal Story - He Sold Himself Short ) - “representing instincts gone astray,…” ( 12 and 12 - Page 50 ) - identified flaws in our personality, thinking, emotional reactions, or behavior character flaws - 50, 73 - see character, flaws, & character defects characteristic - ( kair ik tur ist ik ) - 5, 31, 185 - trait / attribute / quality / feature / a feature that helps to identify, describe, or tell apart a thing or person characteristic intemperance - ( kair ik tur ist ik in temp er unts ) - 185 - …their typical excess or lack of moderation /…their distinctive lack of restraint characteristically - ( kair ik tur ist ik uh lee ) - 71 - like us / typical of us characterizes - ( kair ik tur eye zuz ) - 56 - is the mark of / distinguishes / defines / plays a part of / is a quality or trait of charitable - ( chair eh tuh bul ) - 165 - given / from charity / see charity charitably disposed -( chair eh tuh blee dis poze’d )- 168 - people who are usually in favor of giving to charity / normally generous in giving - see - charity charity -( chair uh tee )- 116, 144, 181 - giving / help / donations / help given to the needy / gift to a charity or cause / organization that helps those in need charter -( char tur )- 148 - authorization / document showing official approval cheer -( ch ear )- 82,114 - encourage ( 82 ) / lightness of spirit or mood ( 114 ) cherished - ( chair ish’t ) - 129 - highly valued / respected / important / prized chief -( cheef )- 7,39,49,76,90,149 - main / most important / primary / leading chiefly - ( cheef lee ) - 45 - mainly / mostly / primarily / largely childish - ( child ish ) - 123 childishly - ( child ish lee ) - 115 - acting like a child / lacking in maturity / immature / like a child or children chaos - ( kay oss ) - 1 - confusion / disorder / unrest / struggle / lack of order chill chokedamp - 149 - a cool suffocating air / a discouraging and suffocating atmosphere / sudden deadly air / cold black air / chokedamp from ‘blackdamp’ ( black + damp gas ) - a suffocating gas found in mines after a fire or explosion chink - ( cheenk ) - 46 - crack / weak spot / narrow opening or weak area chips - 123 - small pieces / ( text use: just another abnormally fearful person ) chokedamp - ( choke damp ) - 149 - see chill chokedamp chronic - ( kron ik ) - 66, 173 - constant / continual / frequent / repeated chunk - 88, 161 - large piece / important or large part / considerable amount churchman - ( church mun ) - 174 - church member / a member of a church cinch - ( sinch ) - 176 - sure thing / a certainty / given / something easy to do circulation - ( surk yuh lay shun / sur kyuh lay shun ) - 185 - being spread circumstance - ( sir kum stants ) - 38, 124 - condition / event / occasion circumstances -( sir kum stants iz )- 26,40,92,97,104,121,157 - conditions, events, or occasions / a thing or things that happen / a condition or fact which determines, or needs considered, in deciding a course of action cite - ( sight ) - 30 - quote / state in detail citizen -( sit uh zen )-171,185 s -(...zunz )-177 - member of a community or social group / member of society ( 171,185 ) / residents / inhabitants ( 177 ) citizenship - ( sit uh zun ship ) - 110 - citizen status / membership clamor - ( klam ur ) - 130 - loud continuous noise / insistent demands clamored - ( klam urd ) - 121 - shouted / called out loudly / insisted clapboard - ( klap bord ) - 149 - see Wombley’s Clapboard Factory class - ( klass ) - 71, 140, 166 classes - ( klass uz ) - 83, 135 - group / groups / types / group whose members share similar characteristics clean house - 56, 60, 63 - house cleaning - 32, 108 ( In the ‘Big Book’ of A.A. - 83, 98 - [ in the first 164 pages ] ) - ‘house’ is used meaning one’s life and way of being in general / similar to or the same as “putting one’s own house in order” / restore order, sanity, and responsibility to one’s life / ( J.S. Huxley - 1923 …to organize the inner reality to react with the outer. ) / ( Bible - 2 Kings 20:1 …”Thus saith the Lord, Set thine house in order: for thout shalt die, and not live.” ) cleavage - ( klee vid’j ) - 11, 167 - separation / division / differences clergyman -( klur jee mun )- 61,63 - ordained church representative / minister clergymen -( klur jee min )- 17,32,63,96,180 - church ministers or members Cleveland's Plain Dealer -186 - a newspaper located in Cleveland, Ohio-USA clinched - ( klinch’d ) - 141 - secured / supported / held together clinked thinly -( klingk’d … )- 163 - made a small, light & sharp ringing sound closed corporation - 171 - a business ( corporation ) in which interests and investments ( shares of stock ) are not open to or owned by the general public closest scrutiny - ( klo sust skroot’n ee ) - 94 - most careful and complete search, examination, or observation club-minded - 148 - interested in or supportive of clubhouses clutch - ( klutch ) - 45 - attempt to grab / to attempt to hold or seize tightly codified - ( ko duh fide / kod eh fide ) - 17 - listed / arranged and shown in a special order / grouped / organized coercion - ( ko ur shun / ko ur zhun ) - 12, 74 - force / demands / threats coin… …sentences - 173 - compose / create / make new / devise / author cold - 44, 81, 97 ( see hot and cold by turns ) - 144 - indifferent / plain / unfeeling / cold hearted ( 44 ) - unfeeling / insensitive / cheerless / cold-hearted / unaffectionate / unresponsive to or unaware of the feelings or needs of others ( 81 ) - completely / totally / absolutely ( 144 ) collective poverty - ( kuh lek tive pov ur tee ) - 11, 160 - shared condition of being poor / common lack of wealth or needed funds / … “So A.A., the movement, started and stayed broke, … ( Page 161 - Top ) collectively - ( kuh lek tiv lee ) - 12, 174, 177 - as a group / all together collision - ( ku liz shun ) - 44, 80 - “collision of instincts” - ( 44 ) “instincts in collision” ( 80 ) / crash / impact / violent contact or confrontation come to grips with - 69, 73 - deal with firmly and in a straightforward way comical - ( kom eh kul ) - 140 - funny / foolish / humorous / laughable commence -( kuh ments )- 50,75,81,88,115,131,132,147 - start / begin commenced-(…ments’d )-39,107,157 commences-(…ments iz )-74,119 commission -( kuh mish un )-89,170 s-170 - actions done / acts committed ( 89 ) / group of people officially authorized to perform certain duties ( 170 ) committee - ( kuh mit ee ) - 134 - a group of people officially assigned to perform a function or act on a matter committeemen - ( kuh mit ee mun ) - 169 - members of a committee committees - ( kuh mit eez ) - 10, 12, 168, 172, 173 - plural of committee Communist -( kom yuh nist )- 147 - a system of government where a single party holds power, controls the economy and th***etical equal sharing of goods compatibility - ( kum pat uh bil it ee / kum pat uh bil uh tee ) - 119 - the ability or state of being compatible / see compatible compatible - ( kum pat uh bul ) - 30, 117-118 - capable of existing or performing in harmonious, agreeable, or congenial combination with another or others / in harmonious or logical agreement compel - ( kum pel ) - 129, 132, 141 - force / pressure / make / to force to act or think in a particular way compelling - ( kum pel ing ) - 117 - forceful / urgent / pressing / powerful competent -( kom pih tunt )- 111 - sufficiently or properly qualified / capable complaint - ( kum plaint ) - 114 - expression of resentment or dissatisfaction composed - ( kum poze’d ) - 133, 160, 178, 181 - made up / formed compounded -( kom pound id )- 149 - made greater / magnified / multiplied comprehension -( kom preh hen shun )- 53 - appreciation / understanding compromised -( kom pruh mized )- 170 - risked / exposed to damage or loss compromises -( kom pruh my zuz )-166 - places at risk / threatens / gambles compromising -( kom pruh my zing )- 158 - threatening / possibly damaging compulsion - ( kum pul shuns ) - 22, 117, 133 compulsions - 73, 151 - seemingly uncontrollable urge or action / irresistible impulse to act, regardless of the rationality of the motivation / an insistent impulse to behave in a certain way, contrary to one’s conscious intentions or standards conceit - ( kun seet ) - 104 - too high opinion of oneself and one’s abilities / fanciful or extravagant thoughts or opinions / lack of humility / self-importance conceivable -( kun seev uh bul )- 141,146,169 - thinkable ( see - conceive ) conceive -( kun seev )- 177 - think / believe / have the opinion that / imagine concentrate -( kon sun trate )- 71 - focus / direct one’s thoughts or attention concepts -( kon seps )- 174 - ideas / thoughts / notions / mental formations concerned -( kun surn’d )- 7,22,30,47,53,56,77,79,86,94,108,120,150,178 - involved / interested / of interest or importance to /- troubled / made troubled, anxious, or uneasy, as a result of one’s interest in something or someone concerted -( kun sir tid )- 150 - combined / united / mutually agreed upon conclude - ( kun klood ) - 38, 67, 85 concludes - ( kon kloodz ) - 153 concluded - ( kun kloo did ) - 28, 31, 151, 163 - find / found / see / decide / decided / determined / ended / completed / - to decide after consideration / to agree with or form a final judgment about / - bring to or come to an end / to end or understand in a particular way conclusion - ( kun kloo zshun ) - 73,123,135,170 conclusions - 34,50 - finding / decision / deduction / end result, judgment, or decision reached condemned -( kun dem’d )- 22, 30 - cursed / sentenced ( 22 ) judged ( 30 ) condition - ( kun dish un ) - 12, 72, 122 - situation / state / shape / status / circumstances / footing / terms / principle / the manner or circumstances of one’s existence // - established position from which to operate // - a state of soundness and readiness for action // - sickness / disease / defect / disorder conditions -( kun dish unz )-8,31,47,52,63,87,88,93,108,118 -see condition confession - ( kun fesh un ) - 6 - from Pg. 56 - “ This practice of admitting one’s defects to another person…” / - the act of admitting to something confide -( kun fide )- 6,61,108 - to tell or disclose something in confidence / trust with sharing private matters / ( Pg.61 “…share your… …self-survey.” ) confided - ( kun fye did ) - 145 - disclosed / revealed / see confide confidence-( kon feh dunce )-6,48,50,51,61,78,110,112,142,165,184,185,186 - a condition in which one is free from doubt / sureness / belief / trust / faith - a firm belief in one’s powers / self-confidence / assurance / - firm belief in another’s trustworthiness / trust / belief / faith / conviction / - acceptance as true or valid / belief / trust / assurance / faith / credit - a tendency always to expect a favorable result / hopefulness confident -( kon feh dunt )- 83, 85,137,146 - sure / assured / expecting a favorable outcome / trustful / trusting // - self-assured or assertive ( 137 ) confiding - ( kun fye ding ) - 58 - telling / trusting / sharing / - see confide confinement -( kun fine munt )- 62,155 - captivity / imprisonment / restraints confirm - ( kun furm ) - 98 s - 60 - affirm / verify / prove / establish as true conflict - ( kon flikt ) - 44, 51, 108 conflicts - ( kon flikts ) - 57, 80, 108 - disharmony / division / disagreement / inner or external struggles / fighting between opposing forces /( Psychology: A mental struggle, often unconscious, resulting from the opposition or simultaneous functioning of mutually exclusive impulses, desires, or tendencies. – American Heritage Dictionary ) conform - ( kun form ) - 6, 10, 40, 130, 136, 141, 146, 173, 174 - agree / adapt / act or be in agreement with / go along with / correspond conformity -( kun form uh tee )- 174,189 - agreement / sameness / similarity confronted - ( kun frun tid ) - 25, 46 - faced / met / met head on / taken confused - ( kun fewz’d ) - 111, 156 - unable to think clearly or act with understanding / puzzled / flustered / baffled confusion - ( kun fyoo zshun ) - 28, 48, 111, 148, 149 - a state of disorder or disturbance / chaos / disorganization / turmoil / agitation congratulate - ( kun gratch uh late / kun gradj uh late ) - 66, 112 - praise / compliment / applaud / express admiration and approval of connives - ( kuh nive’z ) - 135 - plots / plans secretly, illegally, or immorally conquer - ( konk ur / kongk ur ) - 29 - control / gain control of / overcome conquest - ( kon kwest ) - 22 - defeat / destruction / mastery / suppression cons - ( konz ) - 37 - unfavorable factors / negatives / see pros and cons conscience - ( kon shuns / kont shunts ) - 10, 95, 132, 134, 135, 136, 138, 147, 151, 189 ( also see - group conscience ) - sense of proper, moral, or ethical conduct / awareness of a moral or ethical aspect to one’s conduct together with the urge to prefer right over wrong / in agreement with or conforming to one’s sense of right conduct / awareness of differences between one’s accepted values and one’s thoughts, feelings, or actions conscience-stricken -( kon chus-strik un )-151 - struck by the awareness of one’s moral or ethical conduct together with the urge to prefer right over wrong conscious - ( kon shus ) - 8, 48, 62, 96, 101, 105 - aware / known / felt / - aware of one’s surroundings and one’s own existence, feelings, and thoughts - known or felt from within a person’s mind / intentionally done / purposeful conscious contact - 8, 96, 101, 105 - a perceived relationship, association, connection, or communication ( aware / perceived / known + in touch with ) consciousness -( kon shus niss )- 6, 9, 80, 107 - being conscious / a sense of one’s personal or collective identity, particularly: beliefs, attitudes, habits, and sensitivities held by or considered characteristic of an individual or a group consequences -( kon sih kwens uz / kont suh kwentz uz)- 8, 21, 87, 111 - results / outcomes / effects / actions or states created or caused consequently -( kon sih kwent lee )-107,186 - therefore / so / for this reason conservative - ( kun sur vuh tiv ) - 148 - opposed to change / cautious considerably -( kun sid ur uh blee )- 121 - significantly / to a high degree consideration - ( kun sid uh ray shun/z ) - 50, 86, 90, 164 s - 119 - careful thought / thing/s to be carefully thought about / thoughtful concern - something promised , given, or done that completes an agreement considered - ( kun sid urd ) - 95, 109 - carefully thought of / regarded consist - ( kun sist ) - 58 - be made up / have as it’s base / be composed consists - ( kun sists ) - 55, 118, 125 - is made up / is based or centered consistent - ( kun siss tunt ) - 112 - constant / unchanging / steady consistently - ( kun siss tunt lee ) - 80 - usually / constantly / invariably conspired - ( kun spyr’d ) - 79 - worked together / joined together consternation -( kon ster nay shun )- 73,144,156 - great fear, alarm, dread constructive imagination -( kun struk tiv eh maj uh nay shun )- 100,101 - creative thought that serves to improve or advance / helpful mental images constructively criticized - ( kun struk tiv lee krit uh sized ) - 94 - pointed out faults or defects so they might be corrected / usefully judged J consult -( kun sult )-86 - consider / speak with / seek advice or information of consulted - ( kun sult id ) - 189 - considered / taken into account / met with to exchange views to reach a decision consumed -( kun soom’d )- 135 - obsessed / dominated / controlled / eaten contemplate - ( kon tum plate ) - 37 - think about carefully and at length contemplation - ( kon tum play shun ) - 192 - thoughtful consideration / regard / notice / reflection / thought / attention contempt -( kun temp’t )- 184 - dislike / feeling superior mingled with dislike - the mental state of someone who despises something or someone contemptuously -( kun temp choo us lee )- 30 - scornfully / see - contempt content -( kun tent )- 65, 112, 122 - satisfied / pleased / OK / satisfy ( 112 ) contented - ( kun tent id ) - 40 - satisfied / fulfilled / gratified …or made so contention -( kun ten shun )- 166 - debate / disagreement / dispute / conflict contentment - ( kun tent munt ) - 43 - satisfaction / well-being / serenity / - being without pain, worry, or agitation continual - ( kun tin u ul ) - 76 - steady / constant / uninterrupted continuation - ( kun tin u ay shun ) - 102 - extension / resumption continuous - ( kun tin u us ) - 17,40,52,88,114,148 - constant / endless contradiction -( kon tru dik shun )- 172 - inconsistency / lack of agreement contrary -( kon trair ee )- 55,105,136,141 - opposite in direction or purpose - opposing what has been said or what is expected / opposite / contradictory contrast -( kon trast )- 84, 185 - difference / being opposite or very different in nature / inconsistency ( 185 ) / also see in sharp contrast contrasting -( kon trast ing )- 181 - very different / opposite when compared contributions - ( kon tru byoo shuns ) - 11, 160, 162, 190, 191 - donations / gifts / charity / money granted for a definite purpose controversial -( kon truh vur shul )-158,176,192 - debated publicly / subject to strong debate / of, marked by, or producing controversy - see controversy controversy -( kon truh vur see )- 12, 158, 176, 177, 178, 179 - argument / debate / disagreement / squabble / heated verbal conflict, often a public one ( Page 177 - “…this reluctance to fight one another or anybody else…” ) conventional bounds - ( kun ven shuh nul boundz ) - 67 - traditional, expected, typical, customary, usual, accepted, limits convert - ( kun vert ) - 163 - save / rescue / influence or move another to do or accept something converted - ( kun vert id ) - 93 - changed / transformed / remade conviction - ( kun vik shun ) - 24, 28, 40, 89, 105, 157 - belief / faith / opinion / firm or strong belief / spiritual belief or set of beliefs convince - ( kun vince ) - 85 - prove to convinced -( kun vince’d )- 24,25,29,39,72,85,119,135 - brought to believe / in firm belief of the truth of a statement or proposition / in belief cooperated - ( ko op uh ray tid ) - 12 - acted together in support of our aim cooperation -( ko op ur aye shun )- 65,183,190 - working together toward a common aim or goal / willingness to follow a prescribed course / collaboration cope -( kope )-48 - deal / face difficulties and act to overcome them / struggle copy - 157 - see newspaper copy cornerstone -( kor nur stone )-12,179 - indispensable and fundamental basis corporate poverty - ( kor pur it -or- kor prit pov ur tee ) - 165 - from earlier in the same paragraph: “…the principle that A.A. must stay poor.” corporation -( korp uh ray shun )- 148, 177 s - (...shunz )- 167, 180 - company / business / firm / a commercial organization counsel - ( kow’n sul ) - 60, 167 - advice / recommendations / guidance courage -( kur ij )- 7,39,41,83,85,105,112,125,147 - a condition of mind or spirit that makes one able to face danger, fear, or difficulties with self-control, confidence, and determination / bravery / heart / strength / fearlessness courageous - ( kuh ray jus ) - 131 - brave / valiant / showing courage course -( korss )- 47,81,147 - path / route / deed / guidelines / progression / mode of action / the direction of movement / also see of course courtesy -( kurt us ee )- 93 - well-mannered behavior / politeness / respect covet - ( kuv it ) - 49 - envy / want / wish for longingly / obsessively desire cowed -( kow’d )-123 - filled with fear / weakened / discouraged / intimidated crackerjack - ( krack er jak ) - 147 - fine one / excellent example / ( lulu J ) crackpot -( krack pot )- 136 - odd / crazy / weird / loony / oddball / eccentric crackpots - ( krack pots ) - 140 - people whose beliefs and actions are considered odd, weird, or crazy credible - ( kred uh bul ) - 141 - believable / likely / true / apparently valid credits -( kred its )-8,93 - things done right or constructively - See text Pg.93 creed -( kreed )- 141 - faith / religious belief / something one believes as true crept - ( krep’t ) - 158 - slipped / crawled / moved in a slow and silent way criminality -( krim in al eh tee )-156 - lawbreaking / those who commit crimes crisis -( krye sis )- 103,134,135 - emergency / critical point or state of affairs criticism - ( krit eh siz um ) - 88, 91, 103, 165, 170 - critical evaluation / fault finding / a judgment of worth or value / an expression of dissatisfaction / the expression of a low opinion / assessment / also see - criticize criticize -( krit eh size )- 67 - find fault with / pass judgment on / complain of crosses -( kross iz / krahs siz )-86 - burden / weight / load / ref: Jesus’ cross cross-examine -( kross ig zam in )- 52 - ask / question / probe / interrogate crusaders - ( kroo say durz ) - 178 - campaign members / people involved in an effort to accomplish a purpose cubicle - ( kyoo bik ul / kyoo bih kul ) - 162 - small room or office culture -( kul chur )-71 - the products of human work & thought, such as arts, beliefs, and institutions / intellectual and artistic activity and the works from it currency - ( kur un see ) - 147 - money - especially paper money character - see flaws and character defects admin is offline Report Post IP Edit/Delete Message Reply With Quote Multi-Quote This Message Quick reply to this message Thanks Old 10-08-2010, 10:56 AM #2 admin Administrator Join Date: May 2010 Posts: 5,614 Default DEFGH Words D.T.'s -( dee teez )- 152 - ( deh lear ee um trim uns ) [ delirium + trembling ] - short for ‘delirium tremens’ / - a sometimes fatal episode of delirium ( mental confusion, clouded consciousness, often with anxiety, disorientation, trembling, hallucinations, delusions, and incoherent speech. ) usually caused by withdrawal or abstinence from alcohol following habitual, excessive drinking. dawns - ( dawnz ) - 130 - appears / begins to appear / develops / grows deacon -( dee kun )-135 s - 10,135 - an assistant ( cleric ) ranking below a priest / a prefix to the surname of such a person: Example - Deacon Smith - a master of his craft / a very capable person / ( see bleeding deacon ) death sentence - 10, 141 - punishment or penalty of death death warrant -( … war unt )-12,174 - an official order authorizing one to be put to death / something that destroys all hope or expectation / a deathblow debate - ( deh bait ) - 71, 100, 164 - argue / argument / dispute / deliberate discussion of opposing views debating society -26- those who argue difficult, perhaps unknowable, ideas debit -( deb it )- 94 s - ( deb its )- 8,89 - item or items of debt / things owed debris -( duh bree / day bree )- 77 - wreckage / broken or destroyed things debt -( det )- 51 s -( dets )- 121,147 - things owed / obligations / offenses decency - ( de sun see ) - 29 - moral excellence / goodness / morality - conformity to prevailing standards of right action, morals, or modesty decent -( de sunt )-121,136,140 - adequate / acceptable / modest (121,136 ) - morally upright / respectable / honorable / good ( 140 ) decidedly -( deh seye did lee )- 152 - clearly / definitely / without any doubt decision -( deh siz shun )- 5,11,34,38,40,135 s -( ...shunz )- 37,103 - conclusion / determination / deduction / choice / a position, an opinion, or a judgment reached after consideration / the ability to make up one’s mind and carry out one’s intentions / a finding arrived at by reasoning from principles declare -( deh klair )- 25,56,139,147,171,184 - announce / state / express / - make one’s thoughts, motives, choice, opinion, or intentions known declared -( deh klair’d )-22,155,165,167,176,182 - announced / stated / said declares - 63,110 - announces / expresses / states / says / also see declare declined - (deh klined / deh kleye’nd ) - 164, 165 - refused / politely refused declining -( deh kline ing / deh kleye ning )-11,160 - refusing / not accepting decree -( deh kree )- 134 - determine / command / dictate / direct / authorize decry - ( deh cry / dih kry ) - 166 - condemn / to write, think, or speak of as being of little value or importance dedicate -( ded uh kate / ded eh kate )-178- devote / occupy / commit / apply deep-lying inferiorities - 123 - see inferiorities and inferiority defeat -( deh feet )- 5,21,22,38,123 - see Step One - “We admitted we were powerless over alcohol--that our lives had become unmanageable.” // [ Text descriptions: personal powerlessness / removal of self-sufficiency and will to resist / bankruptcy as going human concerns / devastating weakness ( 21 ) // we would ultimately destroy ourselves / hopeless ( 22 ) ] /// - loss of power to control or influence / inability to accomplish an aim or purpose / frustration / destruction / ruin / loss / failure to succeed or win / destruction of spirited force defeated -( deh feet id )-166 - lost / undone / made ineffective / see defeat defeats -47,72- losses / [ couldn’t correct conditions to our entire satisfaction ] defective -( de / di fek tiv )- 80,109 - lacking / faulty / incomplete / imperfect defects -( dee feks / di fecks )- 6, 7, 8, 45, 46, 47, 48, 49, 50, 51, 52, 53, 54, 55, 56, 58, 59, 63, 65, 66, 67, 68, 69, 73, 74, 76, 78, 82, 84, 108, 131, 148 - see flaws and character defects defects of character - see flaws and character defects defensive - ( deh fen siv / deh fents iv ) - 78 - state of being protective to withstand or discourage aggression or attack / constantly protecting oneself from criticism, exposure of one’s shortcomings, or other real or perceived threats to the ego / see also - on the defensive deferred -( deh fur’d )- 79,83 - delayed / postponed / put off until a later time defiance -( deh fye unts )- 5, 28, 31 - rebellion / opposition / disagreement / hostility / contempt / disobedience / noncompliance / an attitude or disposition to defy, resist, refuse, or be in conflict with authority figures or opposing forces defiant -( deh fye unt )-28,174 - openly disobedient / resistant / see defiance defiantly -( deh fye unt lee )- 146 - lawlessly / disobediently / see defiance deficiencies -( deh fish un seez )- 58 - weakness or character flaws / faults / shortcomings / weak points / failings / defects / lacking in ability or capacity definite - ( def uh nit ) - 67, 103 - actual / clear / certain / real / particular deflate - ( deh flate ) - 6, 55 - reduce / lesson / lower / weaken / humble deflation -( deh flay shun )- weakness ( 40 ) / reduction ( 55 ) / see deflate deflect - ( deh flekt ) - 85 - turn / block / distract / deflect / divert / redirect deformities -( deh for muh teez )- 43 - distortions / abnormalities / flaws / disfigurements / imperfections / irregularities / impairments / defects defying -( deh -or- dee fye ing )- 31, 64 - rebelling against / see defiance degree -( deh gree )- 28,65,67,70,76,77,107,135 degrees -(…greez )- 48 - small measure, amount, or extent / amount / extent / measure / level delay -( deh lay )- 7,69 - waiting / putting off until a later time / postponement deliberately -( deh lib ur it lee )- 91,183 - intentionally / purposely / knowingly deluded - ( deh lood id ) - 60 - deceived / mislead / misrepresented / fooled delusions - ( deh loo’z’shunz ) - 58 - false beliefs / beliefs held in spite of evidence that proves them wrong, especially as a symptom of mental illness demand - ( deh mand ) - 26, 32, 65, 76, 103, 104, 115 - see demands demanded -( deh mand id )- 76,152 - asked / to ask for urgently or insistently demands -( deh mandz )- 21, 28, 44, 49, 52, 53, 76, 93, 104, 109, 115, 116 - pleads / appeals / commands / urgent requests, requirements, or expectations democracy - ( deh mok ruh see ) - 134 - majority rule / government by the people, exercised either directly or through elected representatives demolished -( deh ma lish’d )- 52 - damaged / tore down / destroyed / ended demonstrating - ( dem un stray ting ) - 135 - showing / confirming / proving demonstrations -( dem un stray shuns )-9,114- proofs / examples / displays denial -( deh nye ull )- 183 - rejection / disapproval / refusal / - Psychology: an unconscious defense mechanism characterized by refusal to acknowledge painful realities, thoughts, or feelings dependence -( deh pin dunce )- 5,9,36,38,39,116,117,121 - reliance / trust / belief / being dependent upon, as for support / being determined, influenced, or controlled by something else / a compulsive or chronic need; an addiction dependent -( deh pen dunt )- 36, 116, 160, 181 - relying on or requiring the aid of another for support / determined or to be determined by something else / conditional / contingent / having one’s existence depend on another deposed -( deh poe’z’d )- 135 - dethroned / removed from a position of power deprecate -( dep rih kate )- 71 - express disapproval of / belittle / object to depress - ( deh press ) - 168 - lower / reduce / drop / bring down depressed -(deh press’d )-51,94,123,134 - low or lowered in spirit / unhappy / downcast / saddened / hopeless / distressed / gloomy / discouraged depression - ( deh presh un ) - 6, 44, 52, 56, 74, 81 - being depressed / feeling sad or lacking in response / being or feeling glum, sad, gloomy, sorrowful, cheerless, melancholy /( some qualities of depression may be a part of a grief process in response to a significant loss is in one’s life ) / Psychology: A psychotic or neurotic condition characterized by an inability to concentrate, insomnia, and feelings of extreme sadness, dejection, and hopelessness depressive - ( deh press ) - 45, 48, 156 - hopeless, sad, gloomy, and unresponsive / one characterized by expressions of sadness, cheerlessness, desperation, and hopelessness / one suffering from psychological depression deprive -( deh preye’v )- 80, 97, 141 - take something away from / deny / rob deprived - ( deh preye’v’d ) - 75 - kept from having / withheld from / robbed deranged -( deh rainj’d )- 112 - emotionally and/or mentally troubled / crazy derelictions - ( dair uh lik shunz ) - 65 - failures / acts or instances of being lacking in concern or due care / failures to meet or fulfill our obligations / derelicts -( dair uh licks / … likt’s )- 155 - homeless and/or jobless persons derive - ( deh reye’v ) - 192 - receive / obtain / gain / hold descend - ( deh send ) - 133 - come down / come down from a source desert -( deh zert )- 115 - leave empty / withdraw from / abandon / forsake deserted -( deh zert id )- 31, 144 - left / abandoned / betrayed / see desert desirable -( deh zire uh bul )-58,71,72,74- worth having or seeking / favorable despair - ( deh spair ) - 45, 72, 99, 112, 131 - lose all hope / to be overcome by a sense of defeat or loss of hope desperate -( dess pur it )- 22,23,36,142 - extreme / severe / life threatening despite - ( des peye’t ) - 96, 148, 161, 166, 178 - in spite of / regardless of / in disregard, disrespect, defiance, or contempt of destined -( dess tind )-16 - set apart for or directed toward a purpose or place destiny -( dess tin ee )- 71, 98 - future / fortune / fate / course of events / life deteriorate -( dih tear ee uh rate )-174 - weaken / become spoiled or unsound determination -( dih tur muh nay shun )- 39,141 - intention / ability to make up one’s mind and carry out one’s intentions (39) / decision / conclusion (141) devastating - ( dev uh stay ting ) - 21, 74 - overwhelming / overpowering / ruinous / fatal / lethal / causing or capable of causing death or total destruction development -( dih vel up munt )- 36, 60, 91, 98, 114 developments - 135 - growth / progress / creation / steady improvement / a progression from a simpler or lower to a more advanced, mature, or complex form or stage deviates - ( dee vee ates ) - 130 - strays / varies / turns / changes course deviation - ( dee vee ay shun ) - 146 s -( ...shunz )- 146 - departure / abnormality / deviant behavior / departure from what is prescribed or expected devices -( deh vice iz )-100 - methods / practices / means / tricks / techniques devote- ( deh vote ) - 43, 120, 150 - dedicate / commit / apply / deeply involve devoted - ( deh voh tid ) - 17, 74, 124, 129, 162 - dedicated / committed devotion - ( deh voh shun ) - 98, 112, 118 - commitment / affection and dedication / religious observance or prayer ( 98 ) devour -( deh vow er )- 49 - eat up / feast on / consume / destroy / devastate devout - ( deh vowl’t ) - 32 - devoted to religion or to religious obligations / “God fearing” / pious / devoted dictated - ( dik tate id / dik tay tid ) - 12, 174 - ordered / commanded / ruled dictator -( dik tay tur )-133 - ruler / one who rules absolutely and often harshly dilemma -( deh lem uh )- 17,22,25,28,103,142,152 s -( … uz )- 87, 125 - something to be dealt with / difficult, worrisome, or uncertain situation / problem / predicament / difficulty / crisis / jam / puzzle / concern / mess / a situation in which a choice must be made between alternative courses of action din -( din )-178 - noise / loud and perhaps wearily repetitious voices or sounds diplomatic - ( dip luh mat ik ) - 168 - using a manner of speech intended to soften or avoid offense / tactful directive -( dih rek tiv )- 132,173 s -(… tiv’z )- 12 - order / law / command director -( dih rek tur )- 158,177 s - 132 - manager / leader / head / official disagreeable -( dis uh gree uh bul )- 91 - unpleasant / offensive disappointed - (dis uh poyn tid ) - 115 - unhappy / frustrated / discontented disappointingly -(dis uh poyn ting lee )-113- in a way not up to expectations disastrous -( dih zas trus / dih sas trus )- 53,164 - terrible / extremely bad disciplinarians - ( dis uh pluh nair ee unz ) - 12, 174 - forces providing or insuring discipline or self control / those who teach, correct, train, insure order or self-control, by using punishment for failure to follow certain rules or laws discipline -( dis uh plin )- 6, 38, 172 - practice ( 6 ) / self-control / restraint / controlled behavior / instruction / training / penalties or punishments for failures or wrongs done ( 38 ) / ( from the text: - page 172 “…enforce obedience to necessary rules or regulations?” ( 172 ) [ see also self-discipline ( 52 ) ] disciplines - ( dis uh plinz ) - 91 - efforts to follow a set of rules or ideals disclose -( dis cloze )- 52,70 s -( dis clo ziz )- 175 - expose / reveal / make known something previously unknown or kept secret / tell in confidence disclosure - ( dis cloze yur ) - 85, 86 s - (… yurz ) - 47, 83, 186 - something uncovered or revealed that was previously unknown / the act of admitting, revealing, or uncovering something / a revelation / see revelation discolored -( dis color’d )- 80 - affected or changed in an undesirable way disconcerting -( dis kun surt ing )- 103 - troubling / disturbing / upsetting discontented - (dis kun ten tid ) - 118 - unhappy / frustrated / displeased discord - ( dis kord ) - 99 - lack of agreement, tension, or bitter conflict, among persons, groups or things discouraged -( dis kur idj’d )- 91, 111, 113 - made less hopeful or confident discouragement -( dis kur idj munt )- 85 - being less hopeful or without hope discretion -( dih skresh un )- 8,84 - good judgment / careful thinking / wisdom disenchanted -( dis en chan tid )-167- discontented / unhappy / disillusioned disillusioned - ( dis uh looz shun’d ) - 5 - those who suffer disillusionment disillusionment - ( dis uh loozshun munt ) - 43, 114, 115 - disappointment / lacking contentment or satisfaction / frustration / made free from false belief / to be freed or deprived of illusion / disenchanted dismal -( diz mul )-47 - gloomy / depressive / dreary / dreadful / dull / foolish dismay -( dis may )-66 - concern / distress / discomfort / alarm / uneasiness dismayed -( dis may’d )- 144 - troubled / flustered / distressed / concerned / disturbed / worried / agitated / made to feel anxious or uneasy disobedience -( dis uh bee dee unts )- 174 - defiance / disobeying / rebellion dispelled -( dis pell’d )- 167 - driven away or off as if by scattering / dispersed displaced - ( dis place’d ) - 29 - took the place of / replaced / substituted dispose -( dis poze )- 69 - ( …dispose of… ) - attend to / get rid of / deal with disposed -( dis poze’d )-168 - inclined / in a willing or receptive frame of mind disposition -( dis puh zish un )- 45 - usual state of mind or emotions / mood or temperament / tendency / one’s emotional, intellectual, and moral qualities dispute -( deh spyoot / dis pyuut )- 66 s - 191 - argue / debate / question disputed - ( dis pyuu tid ) - 63 - debated / argued / challenged dissenters -( deh sen turz )-148 - people who disagreed or withheld approval dissolution -( dis uh loo shun )- 174 - death / destruction / death by division distilling - ( dis til ing ) - 157 - alcoholic beverage making / brewing distinguish -( dis ting wish )- 89 - set apart / define as being different / raise in importance / make noticeable or different / tell one from the other / contrast distinguished - ( dis ting qwisht ) - 123, 124, 181 - advanced / elevated / honored / set apart / recognized / dignified in conduct or appearance / eminent distorted - ( deh stort id ) - 104, 124 - distorted / exaggerated / warped / mislead / perverted / misrepresented / confused / incorrectly represented distraught - ( deh strot ) - 162 - hopeless / distressed / despairing / crazed distressing -( deh stress ing )-56 - troubling / disturbing / painful / tormenting distressingly - ( deh stress ing lee ) - 117,143,185 - troubling / disturbingly distressingly acute - ( deh stress ing lee uh kyoot ) - 117 - disturbingly severe / seriously demanding urgent attention / extremely painful disturbance - ( deh stur bunts ) - 41, 47, 52, 76 - mental or emotional unbalance or disorder / something that disturbs or the act of disturbing disturbed -( deh sturb’d )- 47, 81, 90, 105, 148 - upset / troubled mentally or emotionally / distressed / offended / troubled / annoyed / angered / unsettled disturbing -( deh stur bing )-73 - troubling / mentally or emotionally upsetting divert - ( deh / die vurt ) - 11,155,165,190 - turn / block / distract / redirect diverted - ( deh / die vur tid ) - 28 - turned away from / caused to change / distracted dividend - ( div eh dend ) - 58 - bonus / benefit / unexpected gain / advantage divine - ( deh vine ) - 109, 137 - godlike / relating to, from, or being the expression of a deity (god or goddess) divine paradox - ( deh vine pair uh dox ) - 109 - godlike mystery or puzzle / ( paradox - a seemingly contradictory statement that may nonetheless be true ) doeth - ( doo uth ) - 75 - does ( third person singular present tense of ‘do’ ) domestic -( duh mes tik )- 9,103,113,120,153 - family, home, or household dominate -( dom uh nate )-42,81,115,124 - control / rule / command / master dominated - ( dom uh nay tid ) - 129 - controlled / ruled / commanded dominating -( dom uh nay ting )- 53, 116 - controlling / ruling / commanding domination - ( dom uh nay shun ) - 9, 44, 117 - control / power / dominion / rule / mastery or power over others / the right and power to govern or judge donor's -( doe nurz )- 161 - the son of the one who gave the hospital / giver dope addiction - 144, 155 - narcotics addiction / drug addiction doubt -( dout )- 21, 26, 45, 60, 93, 97, 99, 153, 158 - question / uncertainty / distrust / disbelief / to be undecided, uncertain, or lacking in confidence doubted -( dout id )- 109,148 - questioned / were uncertain about / see doubt doubter -( dout ur )-109- one who questions or is uncertain about / see doubt doubters - ( dowt urz ) - 23,181 - people who question or are uncertain Dr. Silkworth - 151 - the attending physician during Bill Wilson’s “detox” at Towns Hospital in New York ( 1934 ). Dr. William D. Silkworth or “Silky” as Bill would come to call him, was a significant influence and contributor to A.A. / See ‘The Doctors Opinion’ chapter in 'The Big Book' of A.A. / ( Numerous books and articles are available about Dr. William D. Silkworth. ) dramatic - ( druh mat ik ) - 55, 141 - striking / forceful in effect or highly emotional - reminding one of an act or of an emotionally stirring stage performance - speaking or behaving in an artificial way to make an impression dramatize -( dram uh tyze )-59- be theatrical / build up / color / see dramatic drastic -( dras tik )- 114 - severe / extreme / radical / major / very significant drawing account -136 - similar to a checking or savings account / an account in which money for business and/or personal expenses is made available dreaded - ( dred id ) - 85, 122 - feared drink - ( for page 139 usage only ) - water / body of water / sea drive - 42, 65, 135 - push / force / move / motivate / urge / stimulate / compel / control / force to act or think in a certain way / move to action drive by mandate - ( … man date ) - 135 - push or force by demand, order, or law drives - 6, 49, 65, 124, 165 - forces / group efforts ( 165 ) ( Psychology: A strong motivating tendency or instinct, especially of sexual or aggressive origin, that prompts activity toward a particular end. / An urgent, basic, or instinctual need / a motivating physiological condition of an organism ) driver - 143 - see power driver drunk - 44, 51, 86, 88, 135, 143, 144, 151, 152, 168, 170, 185, 187 drunks - 133, 136, 137, 147, 148, 152, 156, 163 - past participle of drink… as in drink, drank, drunk - drank alcoholic beverages / drank to excess, uncontrollably, or “alcoholically” - physically and/or mentally impaired from drinking alcohol or alcoholic drinks - a period of drinking alcoholic beverages to the point of intoxication - one who is habitually drunk ( alcoholic/s ) ( drunkard/s ) ( problem drinker/s ) drunk farm - 170 - ( see farm and farms for other page numbers ) - slang. - “to fetch the farm” = to be ordered to infirmary diet and treatment. - (1900- Pall Mall Gazette ) The ‘farm’ in prison language is a synonym for the hospital. To ‘fetch the farm’ was slang for getting around the doctor. - the book text clearly suggests simply a place where alcoholics are cared for which may, or may not, include a traditional rural farm or farm-like setting dry - 61,90,144,147,158,185 - free from drinking alcoholic beverages / restrained from drinking / abstinent / sober / sobriety // There are those who suggest a difference between ‘dry’ and ‘sober’ which is likely an outgrowth of the term “dry benders” on page 90. There is no distinction found in the 12n12 text or the first 164 pages of the ‘Big Book of A.A.’ There is a mention in the Big Book Story - ‘A Five-Time Loser Wins’ - Pg. 462 ( 3rd Ed. Referenced ) // - ( Pg. 158 ) - one usage of the simple meaning: lacking liquid or moisture // - ( Pg. 147 ) - …others “dry.” - suggestive of drys / see drys and wets drys -( drize )-158 - supporters of Prohibition ( Prohibition was the period 1920-1933 when the 18th Amendment of the constitution forbidding the manufacture and sale of alcoholic beverages was in force in the United States ( also see wets ) dry benders - (… ben durz ) - 90 - see emotional dry benders and bender dry camp-158- those who support ‘temperance’ or non-use of alcoholic drinks dubious -( doo be us / do be iss )-106,152- doubtful / uncertain / questionable dubiously - ( doo be us lee / do be iss lee ) - 132 - doubtfully / suspiciously duplicate - ( do pleh kit / do pleh kate ) - 147 - copy / recreate / repeat durability - ( dur uh bil uh tee ) - 120 - permanence / stability / strength durable -( dur uh bull )-112- lasting / stable / constant / dependable / enduring duty-bound - ( doo tee bound ) - 155 - morally or socially obligated / held, directed, or compelled by a moral or social responsibility eager -( e gur )- 62,109,121,143 - enthusiastic / intent / determined / expectant - strong desire to achieve / intensely interested and impatiently expectant eagerly -( e gur lee )- 111 - enthusiastically / intently / ambitiously / see eager earnest -( ur nist )- 72,104,144 - serious / determined / solemn / no-nonsense earnestly -( ur nist lee )- 34,86,131 - seriously / with deep thought and intent earnestness -( ur nist nuss )-103- deep sincerity / seriousness / serious intent ebbed -( eb’d )-117 - moved backward / faded / subsided / receded / lessened Eddie Rickenbacker-( ... Rik un bak ur )-13 - Edward Vernon Rickenbacker (1890-1973) - American aviator and honored World War I flying ace. From 1932 he was an executive with several airlines. During visits to air bases in the Pacific theater during World War II, he and others suffered 24 days afloat at sea after their B-17 had to ditch in the ocean. ( Full story is very fascinating. ) He served as President of Eastern Air Lines from 1938 to 1959. editorials -( ed ih tor e ulz )- 165 - newspaper and/or magazine publications / media publications, stories, reviews, releases, reports, features, articles editors - ( ed ih turz ) - 133, 183 - those who prepare, create, adapt, correct, or revise media materials such as newspaper and magazine articles effective -( ih fek tiv )-16,178- useful / able to produce a desired result / skillful effectiveness - ( ih fek tiv nuss ) - 16, 34, 178 - ability to produce a desired or expected result / usefulness / helpfulness / productiveness / capability ego - ( ee go ) - 6, 46, 55 - [ Latin: I ] - sense of self / self image / the sense of self or one’s identity as separate from the world and other selves / that part of the mind which is conscious and most immediately controls thought and behavior, and which is most in touch with external reality // - ‘The 12 & 12’ and ‘The Big Book’ of A.A. is usually addressing exaggerated forms of the sense of self or ego as in a disproportionate (unbalanced - not matching reality - untrue) idea of the importance of oneself and a belief that one has powers and abilities far above the normal or above those actually possessed. ( The works of psychologists Sigmund Freud, Carl Jung, and William James were a significant social influence during the early 1900’s and later. - See “Big Book” - Pg. 26… ) ego deflation -( ego dih flay shun)-40,55 - reducing self importance / see ego egos - ( ee goes / e go’z ) - 55 - plural spelling of ego / see ego ego-driven individualists - ( ee go driv un in duh vidj oo lists ) - 146 - people who believe their individual interests are more important than the interests of a group and are moved to action on this belief, sometimes compulsively or obsessively so. / see ego ego-feeding - 30, 163 - self …gratifying, supporting, sustaining / see ego egomania - ( ee go may nee uh ) - 53 - obsessive preoccupation with ourselves / total occupation of the mind with oneself / [ ego + mania -- excessive enthusiasm or desire + for self centered aims ] / also see ego ego-puncturing - ( ee go punk chur ing ) - 7, 74 - making holes in an inflated, untrue, or exaggerated sense of one’s own importance / see ego egotism -( ee guh tiz um / eg uh tiz um )- 36 - inflated sense of one’s own importance / unduly high opinion of one’s own abilities or worth / see ego Einstein's th***y of relativity - 35 - Albert Einstein’s special th***y of relativity expressed as E=mc² - Energy = mass times c or the speed of light ( 186,000 miles per second ) squared ( squared = multiplied by itself ). - A concept that measurements change when considered by observers in various states of motion. elated - ( eh lay tid ) - 92, 111 - extremely happy / proud and overjoyed elder statesmen - ( el dur states mun ) - 10,135 - textual definition found within sentence it is used / experienced older person acting as an advisor elders -( el durz )- 135,142,143,144,147,148,177 - older influential members eliminate -( eh lim uh nate )-65,88 -ting-117 -tion-50 - get rid of / remove eloquence - ( el uh kwuns / el uh kwunts ) -148, 151 - persuasive expression / effective communication / artful public speaking elsewhere -( else where )- 91,148 - somewhere else / at or in another place elude -( eh lood )-50- escape / slip away from / fail to be fulfilled or realized by elusive -( eh loo siv / eh loo ziv )-94 - slippery / evasive / vague / unrealistic / - hard to pin down / difficult to perceive, comprehend, describe, or capture embarrassing -( em bare us ing )-60,78- distressing / humiliating / shaming / - causing one to feel self-consciously shamed, humiliated, or wounded in pride embattled - ( em bat uld ) - 176 - plagued with controversy, criticism, and attackers / prepared for or engaged in battle embedded - ( em bed id ) - 165 - fixed / established / enclosed / implanted embody - ( em bod ee ) - 156 - give form to / demonstrate / contain / show emerge - ( em urj / eh merge ) - 146 - come up / appear / arise / get out emerged -( em urged )- 16,161 - came into being / formed / developed / arose emergence -( em urge unts )-26-appearance / coming into view / showing up emerging -( em urge ing ) - 62 - arising / coming into being / breaking through eminent -( em uh nunt )-122 -outstanding / well known / high in rank or quality emotion - ( e motion / eh moe shun ) - 88, 94 - any disturbance of mind, feeling, passion; any forceful, intense, or excited mental state. / a mental ‘feeling’ or ‘affection’ as pleasure or pain, desire or dislike, surprise, hope or fear, etc. ), as distinguished from conscious reasoning-/-thinking or voluntary-/-chosen states of consciousness. / a strong feeling / an intense, agitated, or disturbed mental state arising from within rather than through conscious effort and often accompanied by changes in bodily functions / the part of consciousness that involves feeling. / ( some relate: energy in motion ) [ Emotions seem to be an energizing force behind responses to internal or external perceptions, real or imagined. Because of their destructive potential, extremes and deviations of negative emotions are the primary points of focus within the text of “The Big Book” and “The 12 and 12” - Author ] emotions - 44,47,62,78,80,90,97 - more than one emotion / see emotion emotional -( eh moe shuh nul / em o shun ul )- 6,8,37,38,41,42,43,51,52, 77,79,80,88,90,91,94,99,102,103,104,106,114,115,11 6,117,119,139,169 - connected with, based upon, or appealing to, the feelings or passions / easily affected by emotion / characterized by the capacity for emotion / showing emotion / stimulating or intending to arouse emotions - see emotion emotional balance -8,88,102-an absence of extremes in feeling or emotions emotional binges - ( … bin juz ) - 38 - periods of excessive or unrestrained and self-indulgent ( self-serving / self-gratifying ) emotions emotional “dry benders” - 90 - within the textual context Bill is referring to “an emotional jag” - 90 - [ a period of time in an emotional state of “justified” anger ] while one is ‘dry’ [ not drinking ]. Some have come to refer to this as a “dry drunk” . The text stresses the dangers and pitfalls of resentments, anger, bursts of temper, grudges, jealousy, envy, self-pity, and hurt pride. [ “…stormy emotions.” ] There is no direct reference to such as a “dry drunk” within the first 164 pages of the “Big Book” or anyplace within ‘The 12 and 12’. emotional gusts - 169 - outbursts of feeling / varying expressions of feeling emotional handicap - 119 - unfavorable or flawed feelings / feelings that would act as a disadvantage, hindrance, strain, or disability emotional hangover - 8, 88 - The text definition that follows usage on Pg. 88 : “…the direct result of yesterday’s and sometimes today’s excesses of negative emotion - anger, fear, jealousy, and the like.” / see emotional dry bender emotional insecurity - 6, 52 - feeling unsure, unsteady, uncertain, unsafe, or lacking in self-confidence / plagued by anxiety / lacking emotional stability emotional jag - 90 - see emotional “dry benders” emotional security -42,43,51,80,115,116 - feeling sure, steady, certain, safe, or self-confident / also see emotionally secure and emotional insecure emotional sobriety -(…suh bry uh tee )-106 - also see sober and sobriety - feelings that are reasonable in relation to that which stimulates them / feelings that are without extreme qualities of fantasy, instability, or prejudice emotional stability - (…stuh bil ih tee ) - 116 - feeling secure, protected, cared for, peaceful, and possessing an inner strength ( text based definition ) / feelings that are reliable and able to withstand pressure, force, or stress emotional turmoil - (… turm oil / tur moy ul )- 94 - emotional pains ( textual ) - feelings of extreme confusion, chaos, agitation, bafflement, or restlessness emotional twists -117- ( Text Page 80 - "…our emotions violent twists…" ) - emotional distortions or alterations / feelings that could be described as twisted, distorted, perverted, complicated, entangled, or confused emotional wringer - (… ring ur ) - 99 - [ from text: “…the emotional wringer.” ] [ ‘to put through the wringer’ = to try or test a person ] - distressing or painful feelings resulting from hardships in life, and often serving as a test of character emotionalism -( eh moe shu nul izm )- 32 - excessive or improper display of emotion / relying on or the over valuation of emotion / the habit of forming unhealthy or dreadful emotion / weakly giving way to emotion / see emotion emotionally - ( eh moe shu nul ee ) - 92, 116, 123 - in an emotional manner, with reference to emotions /( see definitions in word combinations below ) emotionally ill - 92 - lacking in helpful, healthy, positive, or stable feelings emotionally secure 116- [ text: “…to feel emotionally secure…” ]- to feel safe, sure, comfortable, and self-confident / see emotional security / insecurity emotionally sensitive -123 - easily irritated or angered / quick to take offense emphasis - ( em fuh siss ) - 76, 89 - stress / special attention / special effort emphasizes - ( em fuh sie zuz ) - 98 - stresses / gives special attention to enable -( eh nay bul )- 15,76,103,134 - allow / permit / make an opportunity for enables -( eh nay bulz )- 89 - makes an opportunity for / makes it possible for enabled - ( eh nay bul’d ) - 66, 108, 109 - made it possible for / permitted encounter -( n count ur )- 38, 111,114 - struggle / confrontation / brush ( 38 ) - meet / see / confront / come up against / come upon / discover ( 111, 114 ) encourage -( n kur idj / n kur adj )- 46 - give support to / promote / develop encouraging - ( n kur idj ing / n kur adj ing / n kur eh jing ) - 105, 182 - hopeful / promising / reassuring / inspiring / confidence building end - 7,26,52,69,71,72,79,79,82,89,107,114,137,144,183,1 92 - finish / limit / stopping point / last part / what one intends to do or achieve / aim / also see ends - ends with the means - open end - sticky ends - to the/this end endorse - ( n dorce / n dorse ) - 11,155,157 - support / approve / to give approval of or support to, especially by public statement or written document endorsement -( n dorce munt )-17,157,190 s-(159)-to endorse -see endorse endowed -( n dow’d )- 161 - financed / funded / provided / presented as a gift ends - ( endz… ) - 148 - outcomes / conclusions / situations / circumstances ends with the means - 71 - ( see the following sentence in the text ) - the aims or goals with the methods or ways to reach the aims or goals endurance - ( n dur unts ) - 38 - withstanding hardship or stress / stamina endure -( n dyou’r / n dur )- 33,38 - tolerate / bear / take / put up with / accept endured - ( n dur’d ) - 107, 119 - tolerated / suffered patiently / put up with enduring - ( n dur ing ) - 22 - lasting / sustaining enforce - ( n force ) - 132,172,176 - impose / cause to be carried out / invoke engaged -( n gayj’d )- 34 - involved / occupied / operating / working / devoted engulfed - ( n gulf’d ) - 143 - overflowed / overwhelmed / flooded enhance -( n hants )-119 - add to / complement / increase in value / augment enterprise -( n tur prize )- 11,155,157,170 s - ( … uz ) - 120,157,170 - commercial organization / business / institution / interests ( 11, 157, 170 ) - projects / undertakings / ventures / efforts / pursuits / interests ( 120 ) enthusiasm -( n thoo ze az um )- 137,143,182 - intensity of feeling / passion enthusiastically -( n thoo ze az tik lee )-27-spiritedly / passionately / intently entitled - (n tih tuld ) - 63, 90 - allowed / permitted / given the right or claim entity -( n tih tee )-147,190 - discrete unit / being / creation / structure / body entreat - ( n treet ) - 133 - beg / ask / insistently or urgently request or ask entrenched -( n trench’d )- 175 - deeply established / embedded / firmly fixed envies - ( n veez ) - 39 - is jealous of / holds envy for or towards / see envy envious - ( n v us ) - 49 - jealous / feeling or showing envy / see envy envision -( n vizshun )-100-form a mental image of / imagine / visualize / see envisions -( n vizshunz )- 100 - forms a mental imagine of / conceives / sees envy - ( n v ) - 8, 48, 66, 67, 90 - resentment or discontent aroused by and in connection with desire for the possessions, advantages, or qualities of another episodes -( ep eh soadz )- 84 - happenings / events / incidents / occurrences equilibrium -( e kwuh lib re um / ek wuh… )-73-mental or emotional balance era -( air uh )-165-age / the period of time when something or someone exists erected - ( eh rek tid ) - 28 - created / developed / built / constructed erratic -( eh rat ik )-18,47,130 - deviating from the usual in conduct or opinion - inconsistent / unstable / unpredictable / haphazard / changeable / unreliable erring -( air ing )- 118, 132 - offending / straying / making errors or mistakes Eskimo - ( s kuh mo ) - 169 - member of the peoples inhabiting the Arctic coastal areas of North America, Greenland, and northern Siberia essays - ( s ayz / eh sayz ) - 15 - short writings representing the author’s personal view on a subject essence -( ess unts )- 13,95,101,172 - most important or central part or idea esteem - ( eh steem ) - 92 - respect / favorable regard / positive opinion estimate -( es tuh mate )-68 - measure / evaluate / appraise / assess / gauge ethics - ( eth iks ) - principles regarding right conduct or moral values ethical - ( eth eh kul ) - 133, 136, 137 - moral / honorable / upright / honest / - in agreement with accepted principles of right and wrong / see ethics evading - ( ev ay ding ) - 51 - avoiding / escaping / ignoring evaporate -( ev ap uh rate )-75 s-91 - disappear /s / dissolve /s / vanish /s evasion -( ev ay shun )- 85 -making excuses to avoid responsibility / dodges evidence -( ev eh dunts )-54,97,105,160- proof / demonstration / confirmation evident - ( ev eh dunt ) - 59,65,92 - clearly seen / apparent / obvious / plain evolution - ( ev uh loo shun / ee vuh loo shun ) - 25 - change / gradual development / advancement - the th***y that groups of organisms change with the passage of time exact nature - 6, 55 - precise type / completely truthful description / - specific and factual qualities, properties, kinds, and characteristics exaggerate -( eg zaj uh rate )- 59, 82 - enlarge / magnify / amplify / overstate exaggeration - ( eg zaj uh ray shun ) - 180 - overstatement / overestimation examination - ( eg zam uh nay shun ) - 8,53,8 - inspection / review / survey examine -( eg zam in )-36,94- consider / inspect / look at / question / appraise exceed - ( ek seed ) - 6,42,65 - go beyond / overrun / pass / overstep / violate exception - ( ek sep shun ) - 57,105,173,187 s - ( … shunz ) - 85,90,120 - variation / question / challenge / difference / opposition excesses -( ek sess uz / ek ses suz )-49,66,88 - surpluses / extravagances / overindulgences / going beyond what is needed, wanted, or appropriate excessive -( ek sess iv )- 45, 67, 86 - too much / beyond a reasonable limit exchanging - ( eks chanj ing ) - 122 - trading / giving and receiving / giving in return for something received exclaim -( ek sklaim )-132,145,174 - say / speak out suddenly or emotionally exclusively - ( ek skloo siv lee ) - 72 - completely / solely / alone / without any other excursions -( ek skur zshunz )-67,186- trips / journeys / deviations / tangents exempt - ( eg zempt ) - 42 - freed / spared / relieved / let off / excused exercised - ( ek sur sized ) - 149 - used / practiced / put into play exert -( eg zurt )- 40,42,49,124- to put oneself to strenuous effort (49 and all ) - [ apply / employ ( 40, 42 ) ] [ throw / put forth / employ ( 124 ) ] exertion - ( eg zur shun ) - 6, 40, 105 - great effort / application / see exert exertion of will - 105 - see will / also see exert and exertion exhaustive -( eg zost/zalst iv )- 7,79,122 - thorough / intensive / careful / - taking into careful consideration all aspects with painstaking accuracy exhibitionism - ( ek suh bish uh niz um ) - 46 - deliberately behaving so as to attract attention / showy or theatrical behavior exhilarating -( eg zil uh rate ing )- 29,85- stimulating / energizing / refreshing existence - ( eg ziss tuns / …tunts ) - 28,42,64,121,186 - being / presence - the fact or state of existing / continued being / occurrence / actuality / life expanse - ( ek spance ) - 147 - wide open amount or extent / stretch / space expectations - ( ek spek tay shunz ) -156 - hoped for or anticipated things - things expected / prospects / also see prospects ) expediters -( ek speh dite urz )-175 - those who speed up or ease progress expel - ( ek spell ) - 15,32,57,64,172,173 - drive out / force to leave / eject expelled -( ek spell’d )-129 - thrown out / deprived of membership / see expel expenditure -( ek spen duh chur )-177 - expense / financial transaction / cost explicit -( ek splis it )-15,103 - clearly expressed or defined / precise / specific exploitation - ( ek sploy tay shun ) - 11 - using another person or group for selfish of unethical purposes / selfish use exploited -( ek sployt id / ik sploi tid )- 161,169 - used / used for selfish or unethical purposes / taken advantage of unfairly / manipulated / abused extemporaneously - ( ek stem puh ray nuh us lee ) - 57 - with little or no preparation / unrehearsed / unprepared / without forethought / ad-lib / offhand extensive -( ek sten siv )-81 - far-reaching / great in extent, range, or amount extent -( ek stent )-52,81,92,98,104,117,125,181 - degree / measure / amount extinction -( ek stingk shun )- 45 - death / absolute destruction / being extinct extinguish - ( ek sting gwish ) - 50 - put an end to / put out / bring to an end extolled - ( ek stol’d ) - 143 - praised highly / honored / magnified / glorified extramarital - ( ek struh merit ul / …mair eh tul ) - 86 - adulterous / violation of marriage vows / sexual intercourse with other than one’s marriage partner extravagance -( ek strav uh gunts )-51- being extravagant / see extravagant extravagant - (ek strav uh gunt ) - 51 - excessive or unrestrained in spending extricate - ( ek stra kate ) - 80 - pull out / untangle / free or remove / release extricated - ( ek stra kay tid ) - 118 - pulled out / untangled / freed / removed exult -( eg zult )-66 - take pleasure / delight / feel or express joy or satisfaction facility - ( fuh sil uh tee ) - 11, 155 - something created to serve a particular function such as a hospital or clubhouse / ( Pg. 157 - textual definition: “…in no circumstances could we endorse any related enterprise, …” ) factor -( fak tur )- 89, 181 - fact / circumstance / detail / ingredient / part fair-minded - 91 - just / fair / impartial / not prejudiced / “fair and square” faith - 5,9,25,27,28,29,30,31,32,33,34,38,43,62,70,72,99,1 01,103,112,114, 121,131,153 - belief not resting on logical proof or material evidence / belief / mental acceptance of the truth of something / reliance / absolute certainty in the trustworthiness of another / religion / those who accept and practice a particular religious belief / a system of religious belief / a set of beliefs or principles fallacy - ( fal uh see ) - 31 - error / falseness / untruth / invalid reasoning fallacies - ( fal uh seez ) - 116 - mistaken ideas / unsound character traits fall by the wayside - 74 - fail to continue / give up fallen women -140- women who slipped into moral decline or deterioration fallible-( fal uh bul )-115 - capable of making mistakes / liable to err or offend false pride - 123 - see pride with it’s expanded group and definitions falteringly - ( falt ur ing lee ) - 98 - hesitantly / unsteadily / see falters falters -( fal turz )-82 - is unsteady or uncertain in determination, purpose, or action as from loss of courage or confidence / indecisive / hesitant / waver fancied - ( fan seed ) - 28, 82 - imagined / dreamed / created in ones mind fantasies - ( fan tuh seez ) - 92 - dreams / imaginings / mental images far removed - 174 - long ago taken away / separated a long time fare forth-116- make ones way forward / get by or make do later / go forward farm - 170 farms - 167, 170 - see drunk farms fascinating - ( fass uh nay ting ) - 7, 77 - greatly interesting / very pleasing fashioned - ( fash und ) - 117 - made / shaped / formed / configured fatal - ( fay tul ) - 7, 23, 24, 64, 69, 104, 114 - deadly / - something that causes or can cause death or horrible consequences fault - ( falt ) - 52,77,79,91,103 s - 24,63 - error, defect, flaw, mistake / minor offense or misdeed / a weakness of character, especially a minor one / -( at fault )- blame / being the cause of, or responsible for, an offense or error favor -( fay vur )- 35,79,95,157 - in support of ( 35 ) / regard / opinion ( 79 ) / favoritism / unfair favorable opinion ( 95 ) support / regard / approval ( 157 ) - an attitude of positive regard, approval, support, preference, or agreement fear - 7,10,11,37,44,49,51,55,59,75,76,79,88,93,95,103,12 2,123,131,140,149, 167,169,184,186 - a feeling of agitation and anxiety caused by the expectation or presence of danger / the emotion of pain or uneasiness caused by the sense of impending danger, or by the prospect of some possible evil / concern for the safety of a person or thing / feeling there is reason for alarm, dread, fright, terror, horror, or panic / negative imagination / projecting negative experiences fearful - 94, 123, 168 - full of fear / with, in, or experiencing fear / see fear fearless - 6,42,43,49,56,107 fearlessly - 46 - without fear / bravely feats - 123 - achievements / extraordinary deeds, actions, or skills fellowship - 10,12,15,16,17,118,129,130,143,150,152,157,160,165 ,167,171, 175,176,180,183 - sharing similar interests, ideals, or experiences / friendship / the companionship or close association of people in a friendly setting, on equal terms, and sharing similar interests or aims / association / organization / society fervor -( fur vur )- 22 - intensity of emotion / enthusiasm / passionate devotion festering - ( fest ur ing ) - 77 - increasing in irritation or decline / deteriorating festers -( fest urz )-53-becomes an increasing source of irritation or poisoning fetch ourselves up sharply - 78 - bring or raise ourselves to a higher level or position very quickly / bring ourselves to a halt or stopping place very quickly fevered mind -( fee vur’d mind )- 144 - excited / crazed / intensely emotional fine-mesh -140 - a barrier with small openings which serves as a filter or snare firm - 21,104,133 - strong and sure / securely fixed / steady / determined / solid firm - 86,180 firms - 180 firm’s - 180 - company / commercial organization first-rater -122- ( first-rate ) - ahead of all others in quality, rank, or importance fitful - ( fit ful ) - 123 - periodic / irregular / occasional / sporadic / intermittent flaws -( flawz )-50,56,73,80,95,108 -see character flaws - personality flaws - defects / faults / weaknesses / unfavorable circumstances or personal traits flaws of character - 108 see - flaws & character flaws flier -( fly ur )-[ into the realm of spirit ]-101- a first step / an introduction / a venture or undertaking / an investment in hopes of making a quick profit ( Bill was involved in stock trading; could be his usage of trading language here. ) fling - 156 - try / go / brief trial / time spent energetically involved in an activity flourished - ( flur ish’d ) - 177 - thrived / grew well / blossomed / prospered foggy -( fog ee / fawg ee )- 50,152- cloudy / blurred / unclear / hazy / indefinite folding money - 163 - paper money / paper currency foolproof -148- error free / reliable / prevention against human error or misuse foregather -( 4 gahth ur )-145- gather together / meet one another / assemble foresaw -( 4 saw )- 178 - saw beforehand / anticipated / envisioned / predicted foresee - ( 4 see ) - 141 - know in advance / envision / anticipate / predict foreword - ( 4 word ) - 5,15,16,17,18,143,184 - ( word before ) - introductory note / lead in / a short section of preliminary remarks / preface / introduction formerly - ( 4 mur lee ) - 74 - once / previously / at an earlier time / earlier formidable -( 4 mid uh bul / 4 mih du bul )-28- difficult to overcome or defeat forth - 48, 55, 116, 182 - forward / forward in time, order, place / out into view ( back and forth - backward and forward / to and fro / from side to side ) forthright - ( forth rite ) - 86 - direct / straightforward / honest / open / clear forthwith -( forth with )-181- without delay / right away / immediately / at once fortified - ( for tuh fye’d ) - 135 - strengthened / made stronger or more firm fortify - ( for tuh fye ) - 82 - strengthen / encourage / reinforce / secure fortitude - ( fort uh tood / for tuh tood ) - 114 - strength of mind / courage fortunate- ( for chuh nit ) - 37, 99 - lucky / well off fortunately - ( for chuh nit lee ) - 35 - luckily / happily foul - ( fowl / file ) - 88 - bad / unfavorable founded - ( found id ) - 29 - based / built / established founder - ( found ur ) - 133, 134, 135 s - 133 - creator / originator foundering vessel - ( found ur ing vess ul ) - 35 - sinking ship foursquare -( 4 skwair )-153 - directly / firmly / with firm conviction / forthright fragment - ( frag munt ) - 37,101,132 s - 37,144 - part / piece / portion / bit frail craft -( fray ul kraft )-131- easily broken, fragile, or physically weak boat frankly -( frank lee )-141- openly / sincerely / honestly / directly / clearly / in a way that reveals one’s thoughts freely and honestly, perhaps even bluntly frankness - ( frank nuss ) - 85 - honesty / openness / see frankly fraternal charity - ( fruh tur nul chair uh tee ) - 144 - brotherly support freeze - 152 - shut out, as by cold or unfriendly treatment / stop in progress frustrate -( fruss trate )-36 - discourage / prevent / defeat / seriously obstruct frustration - ( fruss tray shun ) - 44,51,52,76,103,149 - a deep, long lasting, or recurring sense or state of insecurity, dissatisfaction, bafflement, or discouragement as a result of unresolved problems or unfulfilled needs / - an instance of being frustrated / something that serves to frustrate fumbled -( fum bul’d )- 163 - awkwardly searched or sought with uncertainty fundamental -( fun duh men tul )-52,80,108 - basic / essential / central / root fundamentally - ( fun duh men tuh lee / fun duh men tul e )- 104 - basically furious - ( fyur e us ) - 91 - extremely angry / raging / fierce / energetic furors - ( fyure orz / fyore orz ) - 167 - rages / outbursts of intense excitement, indignation, disorder, anger, or fury furthermore -( furth ur more )- 112 - in addition / additionally / also / too futile -( few tile -or- few tul / fuut ul )-91 - useless / pointless / meaningless / fruitless / unsuccessful / vain / having or producing no useful result or effect garbled -( gar bul’d )- 60 - made misleading or incorrect / mixed up / distorted gasp - 132 - breathe deeply / take in a deep breath quickly, as from shock general - ( jen ur ul ) - 55,84 - broad / involving only the main features rather than precise details / not particular, confined, limited, or specific general public - 164,186,192 - anyone not involved in, nor a member of, A.A. General Service Committee - 192 - see Page 191 - Tradition Nine General Service Conference - 4, 12, 173, … Conferences - 175 - also see The General Service Conference General Service Board-140,148,162,168,173,182,189,191- see Pg.191-Nine General Service Office- 18,140,148,162,168,173,182,191- see Pg.191-Nine ( Page numbers not in bold note usage in repeated notes at page bottoms. ) generate -( jen ur ate )- 49 s - 49 - create / produce / bring / give rise to generosity -( jen uh ross uh tee )- 163 - willingness to give / acts of giving genuine - ( jen yuh wun / …win / …wine ) - 45, 59, 72, 95, 106, 190, 192 - authentic / actual / real / true / honest / original / honestly felt or experienced gratitude -( grat uh tood )-95- thankfulness / appreciation of benefits received Gideon Bible -( gid e un )- 145 - a Christian Bible often placed in hotel rooms by members of an international society known as The Gideon’s. Gideon was a biblical Hebrew judge whose deeds are described in the OT. -‘Book of Judges’. give me the business - 153 - give me the ‘scolding’ / give me the ‘information’ give-and-take basis -(…bay suss )- 9,116- a foundation of settling differences and disagreements with compromises and concessions / the practice of making mutual acknowledgements of points claimed in a friendly exchange of ideas glaring -(glair ing )-48,53,66 - extremely obvious / obviously bad or offensive gleaming - 147 - brightly shining / glowing / sparkling / glowing without a flame glimpse -( glimps )-98,101,105,139- glance / brief but incomplete view or look glittering -( glit ur ing )- 112 - sparkling / brilliantly shining / showy / flashy gloated -(glow tid )-30-felt, thought, or expressed pleasure or self-satisfaction, often with a deep-seated ill will, or desire for others to suffer humiliation or harm gloried - ( glor eed ) - 25 - rejoiced triumphantly / glorified / honored / praised gluttonous -( glut nuss / gluh tuh nuss )-66 - given to or marked by gluttony gluttony -( glutun ee )-48,67- excess in eating or drinking / unrestrained greed gnawing - ( naw ing ) - 52 - severe / intense / acute / persistently tormenting goaded -( gode id / go did )-73 - prodded / motivated / urged / stirred to action God's reality -97 - God’s actuality / God’s existence / God’s truth / God’s being golf-score size -149 - size of a card used to write the score of one’s golf game good-naturedly -(-nay churd lee )-122 - with a positive and pleasant attitude / - in or with a positive, good-tempered, pleasant, agreeable, and friendly manner good-sized - 122 - above average, substantial, large, or sufficient amount goodwill - 121 - attitude of kindly and charitable interest and concern for others gossip - ( goss up ) - 67 - worthless or baseless, often sensational and groundless talk about others / rumor or talk of a personal or intimate nature / ( From text: Pg. 67 - …a polite form of murder by character assassination,…) govern -( guv urn )-10,132,134,172,174,192- hold authority over / control / rule governed - ( guv urn’d ) - 178 - see govern grace-8,32,57,64,66,69,76,92,98,100,101,102,113,114,125, 129,146,153,177 - mercy / favor / blessing / divine love and protection given freely - being protected or blessed by the favor of God / power granted by God - undeserved or unmerited benefit or assistance gradually - ( gra jul ee / graj wul ee / gra juh wul ee ) - 27, 116, 118, 122 - slowly / progressing by regular or continuous steps or degrees graduated -( gra juh way tid / graj uh wait id )-148 - advanced or progressed grandeur - ( gran jur / gran joor / gran d’yur ) - 58 - greatness / grandness grandiose - ( gran dee oce / gran de ose ) - 123 - exaggerated in self-importance / arrogant / pretentious / inflated / boastful - characterized by largeness of plan or formal stateliness; often while degrading others / trying to present oneself as being overly important, great, or ‘grand’ - showing an exaggerated display of self-importance, magnificence, or dignity grandiosity - ( gran dee oss it ee ) - 6,45 - being grandiose - see grandiose grateful - 124,133,161 - thankful / appreciative / showing or feeling gratitude gratitude ( grat uh tood- 95 - a warm sense of appreciation of kindness received, involving a feeling of goodwill towards the giver and a desire to do something in return; gratefulness / ( Gratitude urges us to repay kindness ) grave - 56 - place of burial after death 139 - serious / complex / important gravely - ( grave lee ) - 86,109 - seriously / deeply / considerably / importantly Great guns! -158 - an exclamation / a sudden sharp outcry [ First used by Mark Twain in his famous book ‘Huckleberry Finn’ - 1884 ] greed - 48, 51, 66 - an excessive desire to gain or own more than what one needs or deserves greedy - ( gree dee ) - 31, 66 - filled with greed / see greed grim - 140 - firm / rigid / stubborn / often unreasonably firm in purpose or will griping - ( gripe ing ) - 51 - complaining / expressing resentment grip - 73 - hold / tight firm hold // grips - 69, 73 / see come to grips with grooved - ( groov’d ) - 89 - a routine / a regular or standard action gross -( groce )- 81 - obviously bad or offensive / glaring / total / insensitive groundless -140 - unwarranted / baseless / without basis or foundation in fact grounds -153- facts that give logical support to an assertion, claim, or proposal group conscience -(… kon shush / kont shunts )- 10,132,134,135,138,189 ( also inferred on page - 147 ) also see - conscience - the will of the members of a meeting group as expressed by majority vote groveling - ( grov ling / grovel ing ) - 72 - behaving in a submissive, slave-like, degrading, or overly humble manner groveling despair - humiliating loss of all hope / submissive hopelessness grown-up -116,120- mature / adult / mature in attitude, appearance, or outlook grudge - ( gruj ) - 90 grudges - ( gruh juz ) - 47 - deep feeling/s of resentment, ill will, or a desire to see others suffer grudgingly -( gruh jing lee )- 49, 74 - reluctantly / unwillingly / with resistance guarantee -( gair un tee )-10,37,129,146,191 - promise / insure / make certain guardian -( gar dee un )- 12,183 - protector / caretaker / keeper / manager guidance -( gide unts )- 35,43,60,86,103,104,109,137 - leadership / direction guilt -( gilt )- 6,39,44,45,50,59,62 - remorseful or distressing awareness of having done something wrong / responsibility or blame for an error or crime / disapproval, disappointment, or criticism of oneself for supposed or assumed shortcoming or wrongdoing // [ shame and guilt - it has been said, “guilt says to us, I MADE a mistake, and shame says to us, I AM a mistake.” ] shame - a painful emotion caused by a strong sense of guilt, embarrassment, unworthiness, dishonor, or disgrace guns - 158 - see Great guns! gusts - 169 - sudden violent expressions / bursts / flare-ups / outbursts guzzling -( guz ling )- 140 - habitual excessive drinking / drinking too much habitable - ( hab eh tuh bul ) - 167 - livable / fit to live in habitual supposition -( huh bich yul sup uh zish un )- 160 - usual belief habitually - (huh bich ul ee / huh bi chawul e ) - 53 - repeatedly / usually had them cold -144 - had them captured completely, totally, absolutely half steam - 49 - half power / half of one’s capacity for work or activity haltingly -( hal ting lee )-68- uncertain or indecisively / unsteadily back & forth hamlets - ( ham lits) - 131 - small towns or villages handicap -( han de cap )- 71,119 s - 66,74 …capped - 59 - disadvantage / disability / hindrance / unfavorable condition, circumstance, or characteristic handsomely - ( han sum lee ) - 30, 80 - skillfully / easily / pleasingly / appropriately ( 30 ) // well / generously ( 80 ) handsomely in a walk - 30 - easily and without effort hangover - ( hang over ) - 8,84,88,162,163 - unpleasant physical effects following heavy drinking of alcohol / ( also see - emotional hangover ) harbored -( har bur’d )- 47 - held / nourished / sheltered / nurtured / nursed hard up - 164 - poor / poverty-stricken / with little or no money / destitute hard-and-fast - 68 - defined, fixed, and invariable / clear and strong harmed - 7,32,77,78,79,80,83,86,108 - textual definition: Pg. 80 - “…we might call it the result of instincts in collision, which cause physical, mental, emotional, or spiritual damage to people.” // injured or damaged physically or psychologically / the action or result of causing loss or pain harmony - ( harm uh nee ) - 18, 93, 99, 101, 130 - agreement in opinion, sentiment, or feeling / mutual understanding / accord harnessed -( har nuss’d )- 70 -brought under control and directed / utilized harrowing -( hair oh ing )- 84, 139, 185 - extraordinarily painful or distressing harvest -( har vist )- 42 - gather / plant, hunt, gather, collect and store hastily -( hayst uh lee )-91,163- very quickly / too quickly to be correct or wise haunt -( hawnt / hont )-121 - visit / bother / torment / come to mind continually havoc -( hav uk )-104,161 - widespread disorder, destruction, or chaos ( 161 ) - the source of widespread disorder, destruction, confusion, or chaos ( 104 ) hazardous open end - ( haz ur duss … ) - 69, 181 - risky or dangerous condition of having no limit, duration, or amount headlong - 40 - forceful or fast / rash / headfirst / reckless and hasty headway - 77 - forward movement / progress / advancement / progression heartily -( hart uh lee )- 31, 94 - completely / thoroughly / enthusiastically heated-176 - angry / impassioned / controversial / inflamed with intense feeling hemorrhage - ( hem ur ij ) - 135 - bleed ( relating to text reference “bleeding deacon” ) / to experience a rapid loss of something considered valuable hence -( hents )- 12,59,167,176,189,190 - for this reason / therefore henceforth - ( hents 4th ) - 165 - from this time / from now forward heritage - ( hair uh tij ) - 191 - tradition / legacy / inheritance / birthright --- “spiritual heritage” - spiritual roots, tradition, inheritance, or legacy hesitantly -( hez eh tunt lee )-152 - after a pause / with delay and uncertainty hierarchy - ( hire ark ee ) - 133 - structure of persons holding authority high hurdles -(… hurd ulz / hur dulz )- Sports: barriers over which competitors must jump without breaking stride in running races / see hurdle high time - 160 - currently or past a fitting or favorable time / important time highlighting -151 - making clear / emphasizing / showing the importance of highlights - 70 - shows clearly makes very clear / emphasizes hinder - (hin dur ) - 79 - delay the progress of / get in the way of / obstruct hire -( higher )- 11,133,137,167,169,171,191 - employment ( 133, 191 ) / work for pay / wage / pay ( 11, 137, 171 ) / employ / use ( 167, 169 ) hired -( higher’d )-158,161,167,168,170 - employed / paid for work or services hired out - 170 - worked for pay [ outside the fellowship of A.A. ] / see hired hit bottom - 5, 24 - reach or reached the lowest point / see bottom hitherto - ( hith ur to ) - 74, 107 - until this time hitter - see bush-league pinch hitter hoard -( hord )- 43 - gather and accumulate / store up beyond one’s needs holed up - ( whole’d ) - 144 - taken shelter in, or as if in, a hole or hideout holocaust -( holo -or- hol uh cost )-176 - extreme destruction or loss of life / massive slaughter / war ( Holocaust - The attempted genocide or killing of over 6 million European Jews by Adolf Hitler’s Nazis during World War II. ) home group - 133 - a meeting or group, a member chooses as one they will most likely attend regularly and support., often near their actual home, though not necessarily so. Having a ‘home group’ is usually considered a fundamental of recovery and the importance and benefits are great and many. honest - 24,29,32,54,60,62,79,91,95,114,158 - truthful / clear / accurate / true / real / right / open / direct / genuine / sincere / respectable / reliable / fair / just honesty - 6,58,59,63,66,72,107,108,143,156 - being honest / truthfulness / sincerity / not to lie, steal, or deceive / fair and truthful speech and conduct honor -( awn or )- 124 - recognition of achievement / admiration / prestige hopped the subway - ( hop’d… ) - 151 - jumped aboard a subway and made a quick trip horse-and-buggy stuff - 182 - an old idea or practice not currently useful hospitable - ( hoss pit uh bul / ha spit uh bul ) - 167 - characterized by kindness and warm, unaffected courtesy / gracious / agreeable / disposed to treat guests with warmth and generosity / favorable to growth and development hospital chain - 155 - a number of hospitals under the same ownership hostile -(hoss tul / hoss tile )-105 - unfriendly / warlike / offensive / combative hot and cold by turns - 97 - at varying intervals / “by fits and starts” / fitfully / - in this usage turns means irregular impulses or periods of action hotly assailed -( … uh sail’d )- 167 - intensely attacked with harsh language house cleaning - 32, 108 see - cleaning house hulk -( …”big hulk of a man.” … )- 152 - large, massive, bulky, or towering hum -(… “began to hum.” … )- 148 - be active / be in a state of busy activity humble - 73,74,121,133,135 - not exaggerating or prone to exaggerate one’s own worth or importance / not prideful / showing submissive respect / modest - having a low estimate of one’s importance, worthiness, or merits / patient humble pie - 74 - humiliation / submissive behavior / humble apologies humbled - ( hum bul’d ) - 64 - brought to think more lowly of oneself ( or themselves ) / brought to become more meek in spirit humbler -( hum blur )-112 - more simple / less costly / modest / more humble humbles - ( hum bulz ) - 21 - text-previous sentence: “…he has accepted his devastating weakness and all it’s consequences.” / assumes a humble attitude humblest -( hum blust )- 173 - most humble / see humble humbly - ( hum blee ) - 7, 70, 75, 108, 124, 125, 149 - with humility - in a humble way, manner, or method / not showy / not claiming or demanding special merit, distinction or consideration / showing patience and humility humiliating - ( hue mil e ate ing) - 47, 56, 58, 85 - something that lowers one’s pride, dignity, or self-respect / degrading / embarrassing / insulting - something that lowers self-esteem, self-worth, or effectiveness humiliation -( hue mil e ay shun )- 21 s -(… shunz )- 72 - state of being humiliated or disgraced / loss of or damage to one’s reputation / actions or circumstances which are embarrassing, shaming, or degrading humility-( hue mil uh tee )-5,6,7,13,30,31,32,33,45,48,58,59,60,62,70,71,72, 73,74,75,76,98,149,153,187,192 - being humble / lacking in vanity, pride, or self-importance / Textual: (Pg.30 - “…down to our right size.”)/(Pg.48 - “…get perspective on ourselves….”)/(Pg.58 - “…it amounts to a clear recognition of what and who we really are, followed by a sincere attempt to become what we could be.”)/(Pg.72 - “…a desire to seek and do God’s will,…”)/(Pg.75 - “…a healer of pain.”)/(Pg.76 - “…Step Seven is on humility.”)/(Pg.149 - “…”Rule # 62.” …”Don’t take yourself too **************** seriously.”)/ (Pg.153 - …”humility was the main key to sobriety.”)/ (Pg.186 - “…humility, expressed by anonymity, is the greatest safeguard that Alcoholics Anonymous can ever have.”) humorless -( hue mur luss )- 81 - lacking a sense of wit or humor / without the ability to see, enjoy, or express what is amusing, inconsistent, or absurd hurdles -( hur dulz / hurd ulz )-47 - obstacles / barriers / see high hurdles hurt pride -8,59 - damage to an excessively high opinion or oneself hypocrisy -( hi pok ruh see )- 30 - falseness / phoniness / two-facedness professing of beliefs, feelings or virtues that are not actually held or possessed hypothetical -( high puh thet ik ul / hype uh thet ik ul )-140 - existing only in concept and not in reality / th***etical / presumed real though without certainty
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