Using Others to Stop Our Pain

[MajestyJo]

When I went to treatment I was asked, "What makes you happy? I didn't know. I didn't have a clue. I had lived my live through other people and had no identity left of my own. I gave away 36 cassettes of country music because I found the too negative and really not my thing in the moment. I found a new interest in Jazz and explored other kinds of music, mostly Easy Listening. No in today, I like music without the words, but once in a while if I don't like the noise, I listen to country classics. People with Fibromyalgia are susceptible to noise. It is something I just have to accept. I haven't been able to listen to very much TV at all.

In the past I let others make my decisions. I used them to make my decision and used them to take away my pain. I couldn't love myself, so I looked in all the wrong places for it. I didn't find it in the bottle, in the pills, in food, and/or in relationships. It had to come from within. Let it begin with me.