?about recovery thru AA

[MajestyJo]

Thanks for sharing Beingsober. I did, change my date to August 21. I reached out to the social worker at the YWCA on August 8 and she got me into a recovery house. I went to Mary Ellis and said my dry date was August 21, even though I always felt as though the 8th was the most important date. It was my day of surrender, my reaching out and asking for help. I met a girl at Mohawk College, and she was originally from Ancaster, a suburb of Hamilton and she lived in Hawaii. She took additional courses at McMaster University and she stayed with me for 2 weeks before she left to go home. The day before she left, we went to Kelsey's for a steak, baked potato and sour cream, and we had a glass of wine with our meal. I quit drinking when I started working with her, so that glass of wine was one drink too many. I like you didn't make me want another, but it did play some mind game in my head. My problem with alcohol was my self-justification. I was told to identify, not compare. It wasn't how much I drank, but what it did to me when I did drink it.

I could match my ex-husband drink for drink and walk a straight line and drive him home. It got so I was not a very nice person, my personality changed, and I started to argue, be *****y, play those game and wasn't a very spiritual person. I didn't want to go back to where I came from. One drink is too many. As they say, it is the engine that kills you, not the caboose.

All we lose is a dry date, We still have the recovery we have learned along the way. The social worker wanted to go after his license, bu he was my aunt's doctor so I said no. She changed doctors when she saw the change in me, because he had her on T2s and wanted to put her on T3s. She did it on her own, along with her God and a new doctor. The doctor retired shortly afterward and he passed away within the next year. We need to get honest with ourselves, with others, and our God. You will be better for it and it won't play on your mind. You will know and your God too.

Hold on what ever you do. Keep coming so you don't have to come back.