Chipping Away at Defects of Character

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will not be judgmental. I will allow others their space and remember that I need to love the person as a child of God, I don't have to like or love their actions. It is not up to me to judge their motive and intent. I will try not to play 'god' with someone else's life or with my own.

Signs of abuse:

http://stoprelationshipabuse.org/edu...igns-of-abuse/

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will let go of my anger. A lot of it is from stuff that is none of my business. It certainly isn't something I should take on. I just need to deal with my own feelings concerning te situation. Anger is a danger. It take away my Serenity and threatens my Sobriety (soundness of mind).

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, enough already! Have been in major pain for two days. I am beginning to think a lot of it is emotional pain making itself known physically. When I went to see my sister today, she looked worse. Continued prayers would be appreciated.

Closing up shop and going to bed to see if I can find some of the sleep I lost the last couple of nights.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, it is about self care so I can make it out to a meeting with a newcomer tonight. I don't want to do anything that will cause my feet to swell or ache, which is ironic, because I think they have a mind of their own. It means I can't do nothing, but I can't do too much either, like I did yesterday. It wasn't of my choosing, but that was the problem, I was working on self will, I wanted to go see my sister, but my body was telling me no all afternoon. I did other things then went to the hospital and ended up not doing the thing that I should have done, which was give blood seeing as the lab is closed today because of the holiday and now I have to wait until Monday.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will give thanks for those who have prayed for my sister. I put some gratitude in my attitude today and went up to see her. I stayed with her while my brother-in-law took my niece home. She has been there with her mother every day she has been in ICU. She has time off work and has spent it with her mom at the hospital.

I am grateful that although I slept late, I did wake up with no pain. There were signs all the way, buses arriving and me not having to wait and specials on some things in the grocery store on things I needed.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will follow my heart and come from a place of Love. You can't go far wrong if you choose love, especially if your intentions and motives are right and not for self, but for the good of the whole. I don't just come here for my recovery, I come to share with others to give it away, with the hope that it will help others.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will try to organize my thoughts and my actions. It is important for me because if I don't, I forget! I get a though and discount it and forget that it is often from my God if I have asked Him to be a part of my day. If I forget, and I don't feed my spirit, I lose that defense against my addiction and I can slip back into old patterns and behaviour. It is easy to get complacent and forget there is always room for growth. What I did last week, isn't going to keep me sober in today, let alone what I did a year agao. I have learned the tools, but I still have to remember to pick them up. It helps if they are in order.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will work on my willingness to be willing. I have had laundry to do and have been procrastinating about it. Yesterday I had thoughts, but couldn't follow up because the water had been shut off in the building. It is suppose to rain and storm, so it looks like I might not be able to go to my meeting, so it looks like I need to be willing to do my laundry and procrastinate no more. As they say, procrastination is a 5 syllable (that doesn't look right, but my spell check isn't working) word for sloth.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will practice patience and tolerance. There is a car alarm going off in the parking lot opposite my building. It is 1 a.m. and not condusive to serenity.

My thought is, "Knock it off already," but who knows where the owner is, probably in a bar in Hess Village.

I have the same problem with sirens. I know that it is because every time I hear one, I wonder if my son is involved.

Thank you, it was just turned off.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will pray for the willingness to be willing to be open for healing for my sister and myself. When I went for my treatment at the Holistic Center, I asked that she be given what she needed and what I needed to align my body as it is "quite bent out of shape," physically and mentally.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will practice the slogan, "Live and let live." It is so important to live my life and not put it on hold for others.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will try not to give up my power. I will remember that I am empowered by my God to do what I need to do in today. All I need to know is that He is there and all I have to do is reach out to Him for the courage, strength, direction and what ever else I need, just for today.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will give thanks. God answers prayer. I see His handy Work around me and within me. One day while meditating, I got a card that said, "Give thanks, it is already on it's way." I just said "Thank you, thank you, thank you," and as I got up from my prayer rug (a hand made circular one, sadly now defunk), and the phone rang and my needs were met.

When my son got the text today to say that my sister was better, I said, "I know." He said, "How do you know." I said for one thing, "God answers prayer. Secondly I did a meditation this morning when I couldn't sleep because of my pain and included my sister in my thoughts, and got a card from a Flower Therapy deck written by Doreen Virtue and Robert Reeves that said, "Your wishes are coming true."

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will try to find balance in my life. Not just with the things around my, I can't center myself with the world, but I need to do it within myself. I also need to find balance, because I am having problems walking and not being able to stop stumbling and falling into things. I am not sure what the problem is, I am going to call my doctor's office this morning because my appointment is two weeks away and things seem to be getting worse instead of better.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will remember to use the Steps to a higher plane of awareness. My disease is one of perception. I pray and ask that it be healed. I need to apply the program and the spiritual principles to all areas of my dis-ease, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and physically. I will connect with my Higher Power, we can do what I can't do alone.