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bluidkiti · 07-20-2014, 11:07 AM

July 26

“If we were to live, we had to be free of anger.” Alcoholics Anonymous, page 66

“Hear, O Lord, and be merciful to me; O Lord, be my help." Psalm 30:10

For what it's worth: Reality had been dodged for so long that when it whacked me in the head, I feared and raged. I was angry at God. I fought acceptance and surrender. I could not be powerless. I did not need to meet with a bunch of drunks. And, as a Marine, I was not about to surrender. I was afraid I could not do what Alcoholic's Anonymous suggested I needed to do to stay sober and alive. Indeed, it was miraculous that I did not drink while fighting the Program. It was God. I do not remember crying out for help, but, despite my attitude, He was merciful to me. I did not realize it at first, but when I became aware of God's help I started to believe He loved me. That was the start of my spiritual recovery. Today, instead of fighting there is surrender, instead of anger there is calm, and instead of fear there is trust in my Heavenly Father's love.

God bless you.
Joe W.

07-20-2014, 11:07 AM	#26
bluidkiti Administrator Join Date: Aug 2013 Posts: 75,407	July 26 “If we were to live, we had to be free of anger.” Alcoholics Anonymous, page 66 “Hear, O Lord, and be merciful to me; O Lord, be my help." Psalm 30:10 For what it's worth: Reality had been dodged for so long that when it whacked me in the head, I feared and raged. I was angry at God. I fought acceptance and surrender. I could not be powerless. I did not need to meet with a bunch of drunks. And, as a Marine, I was not about to surrender. I was afraid I could not do what Alcoholic's Anonymous suggested I needed to do to stay sober and alive. Indeed, it was miraculous that I did not drink while fighting the Program. It was God. I do not remember crying out for help, but, despite my attitude, He was merciful to me. I did not realize it at first, but when I became aware of God's help I started to believe He loved me. That was the start of my spiritual recovery. Today, instead of fighting there is surrender, instead of anger there is calm, and instead of fear there is trust in my Heavenly Father's love. God bless you. Joe W. __________________ "No matter what you have done up to this moment, you get 24 brand-new hours to spend every single day." --Brian Tracy AA gives us an opportunity to recreate ourselves, with God's help, one day at a time. --Rufus K. When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. --Franklin D. Roosevelt We stay sober and clean together - one day at a time! God says that each of us is worth loving.