roverl0616
07-19-2021, 10:24 AM
A problem for us all when new to recovery is this askew view that we have of a higher power. I didn't know there are universal laws that govern us all, and I would have never intended to defy them. Yet somewhere along my way I became at odds with them and started to pay heavy for having done this. I then became angry and blamed whatever was responsible for this whole world for my misery. Eventually, even my drinking couldn't shield me from the despair this was causing and I was close to my end. I just couldn't keep going on any longer. Then I was given a reprieve through recovery and wanted so much not to die, but even then felt that I would because I could get the whole higher power thing that recovery was all about. I was telling this to someone after a meeting when he said borrow mine. This worked for me and made it a lot easier for me to rid myself of what wasn't working. I then became in tune again to that which governs us all. Thanks