"Watch your thoughts, they become words;
Watch your words, they become actions;
Watch your actions, they become habits;
Watch your habits, they become character;
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny. "
- Tom Robbins -
Picking up substances that were not good for me
Running away from the reality of my life and everywhere I went, I took me with me.
I used relationships so I could focus on them instead of me. I depended on them to fill the emptiness inside and give me the happiness and fulfillment I wanted but didn't think I really deserved.
For so many years I blamed others for the problems in my life and I believe I was a product of my environment. I always wanted to fit in and belong and did many things that were not healthy choices. I lost my spiritual values and integrity as a result of habits I picked up along my way, and my destiny finally brought me to the doors of recovery. It took me a long time to get here, I was lucky the door was still open. Even luckier, that I lived to walk through it.
What you put out, comes back to you. I believe a thought is a prayer. Sending good thoughts to everyone this holiday season.