Family is good and I had major regret as a result of not being a part of my nieces growing up. We didn't live near each other, but now that we are in the same city, I never see them except on holidays.
I couldn't get sober for my family. I couldn't stay sober if I allowed my family to interfere with my recovery program. I was an embarrassment to them. Even today, not sure that I have their trust, although one niece said, "Aunt Jo don't let my mother talk to you that way." I just couldn't take it all personal.
As they say, "Take your QTIP with you every where you go. Quit Taking It Personal.
I loved them, but didn't always like them. Even my son, who is in active addiction, tells me to go to a meeting. He doesn't want to see me to go back to where I came from.
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Love always,
Jo
I share because I care.
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