Just for today, I will accept what is. As soon as I find acceptance, things move forward and I don't stay stuck. I can't grow or move through issues until I can find that acceptance as it is in the moment, knowing it is subject to change.

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Just for today, I will focus on my own recovery. I will apply the slogan, "Let It Begin With Me," and live my own life and allow others to live theirs. For so many years, I lived my life through other people. That old BS saying, "I am happy if you are happy," doesn't cut it any more. I can't use people, places, and things. I am powerless and all I can change is me.

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Just for today, I will try to accept the fact that it is snowing so much that when I look out my window, it is a white out. Not exactly spring weather, but as the saying goes, this too shall pass.

I keep reminding myself that when I met my first husband on the 24th of May weekend it was snowing. As my son says, "But Mom, you are old." That was 55 years ago and weather has changed over the years, so accept it. Just for today, I will accept what my God sends and go with the flow. There may be a reason, but I don't have to know!:(

Just for today, I will continue to work on my acceptance. My son is in active addiction and I have to remember that his words are coming from an addict and it is the drugs that do his talking.

Acceptance is the key to all of my problems in today. As it says in the Big Book, I need to raise the level of my acceptance and lower my expectations.

Just for today, I will be unafraid. I will turn that fear into faith. I will put myself into my God's Care and ask for the strength and courage to see through each day as it comes. I will not allow my fear to spoil my day and prevent me from living each day to it's fullest. When I a$$ume and jump to conclusions, I am not exercising the powers of faith and not trusting my God. I can't, He can, just for today, I choose to let Him.

God Bless!!! Don't know which way to turn, take it to the Lord. (Taken from an old post, easier to copy and paste from past posts then go to another site.)

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Just for today, I will not procrastinate, I will just do it! If I ask for the Good Orderly Direction I need in today, I know it will be there. If I head in the general direction, I know that I will end up where I am suppose to be. I did put money on my laundry card on my way back from the pharmacy, so that was a step in the right direction.

I heard that my friend who is part of the meeting today was taken to the hospital; so I am going to go to the meeting to see how he is and if he is still in the hospital, I will find out which one he is in.

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Just for today, I will allow myself to grieve the passing of my friend. I am not sure if that is the issue or whether I have the flu, could be both. Again, it all comes down to acceptance of what is in the moment. Don't fight it, accept it, and then you can move forward instead of being stuck in the situation. Recovery is a process. Just because I have been in recovery for several 24 hours, doesn't mean that life stops happening. It is one day at a time.

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Just for today, I will pray for the willingness to be willing to do what I need to do for myself. Haven't had a lot of motivation lately and I need to get outdoors instead of looking at four walls.

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Just for today, I will put some gratitude in my attitude. I was grateful to see 4 people I knew even though I was only out for an hour.

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Like the Spiritual Experience on page 569 of my soft cover third edition of the Big Book.

In order to achieve spiritual experiences and awareness, you need to change your attitude in order to aid recovery.

I personally have embraced change over the years, I never wanted to just stay sober, I didn't want to go back to where I came from and act out in my disease by going back into old patterns, behaviors, and habits.

Just for today, I chose life. When I came into recovery, I wanted to stop the world and get off. I had no purpose for living, and didn't think I could include myself on the list. The 5th Tradition of AA is what gave me purpose and a reason for being, even though I no longer found that I had to question and justify my existence. When I shut down or live in the negative, I block the positive and the Grace of God from coming into my life. Life on life's terms. I often questioned, why me? So many others seemed to be so much more worthy and needy. I was told "Why not you?"

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Whoops! It looks like I got mixed up and forgot and put "Just for today" on this post. Just shows where my head has been at. What comes to mind, "Be sure your sins will find you out!" ;)

Acceptance/Defiance

It is difficult, when doctor and medical people want you to be there on time, but when you get there, it is their time which doesn't run on our time clock.

I think it is normal. If you are 15 min. late for an appointment, you have to rebook. If you are early, you still have to wait 1/2 to an hour after your appointment, if you are lucky. This is just in my doctor's office, never mind specialists, lab and x-ray, although our x-ray people are pretty good.

I have had to go without food for a lot of test over the years. It would be easier if I could stop eating at midnight and go to sleep, but it seldom works that way and I have to deal with the feelings until such a time I sleep, if I sleep at all. Again, it does boil down to acceptance. If I am in the defiant stage, I only add to the misery and my feelings grow out of proportion and can be overwhelming. Many times I wish I could pick up a cigarette, but for me to pick up a cigarette is to die. I would die faster than if I picked up a pill or a drink, and they aren't options either in today. I can't abuse any substance, especially pills. I am on different kinds of medication for my heart, diabetes, arthritis, etc. I had to pray and ask my God to help me deal with the thoughts and feelings I had when I took them. If I found myself taking a pill and waiting for the fix, then I shouldn't be taking it. Again it is the mental aspect, and if I am thinking that the pill is the solution, I know that somewhere along the way, I left my God out of the equation.

Just for today, I will be grateful. I am grateful that this day shall soon pass and a new day will begin. I have a tentative date to meet up with a friend tomorrow, if my body will co-operate. It is one day at a time, what will be will be.

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Just for today, I will surrender. I will try not to figure it out on my own, I will let go and let God. I was questioning why I couldn't sleep. Did a meditation with my angel cards. About 15 minutes later, I got the thought to call the pharmacy to see if my son could pick up my refill and return my blister pack for me and when I phoned, I found out that they had a script for an antibiotic. Here I was thinking I should be able to fix things and make things better, when all I had to do was surrender and the Good Orderly Direction was there to show me what I needed to do for myself, in today.

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Just for today, I will continue to take care of myself and give my body, mind and spirit what they need. I must always remember that my disease is four-fold and I need food on all levels in order to recover.

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